stupid magician! (Hisoka x reader)

You remember of the zoldyck family a cousin to be precise but you were raised with them as a daughter and a sister. You are one of the only people who's allowed to see Alluka at generally any given time just because it seems that Alluka shows emotion around you and killua both but they see Killua as some sort of future head of family that should always be something or whatever it's really stupid But there's nothing you can do about it. You are very close to both Alluka and Kailua and the three of you generally spend a lot of time together. You are also close with illumi and you both have a soft spot for the other even though you both try not to show it. You have generally strong emotions but you do your best to seem indifferent when around other people because it is just what you and illumi were taught of course he doesn't have near a strong emotions as you but that's whatever. You've also just recently turned 19.
You first meet the stupid clown whenever for some reason illumi HAS to bring him with you on a mission. after a while he ends up growing on you but you won't let him into your heart. You won't let him sleep through the skin. You won't let him break you.

okay so like just ignore my inconsistencies please 😌🔪