Dear......

Dear.....

I am hoping that you both are happy with each other. I am sorry for not being honest with you both ever but when you both get this I may not be here. You both deserve each other I guess I am not the one that you both wanted as a friend and girlfriend but it's ok I guess I can't keep this in anymore "i love you Zach" I understand that you are with Hayley now but it's ok I guess my feelings are mine you don't have any feelings for me I understand "I miss you Zack I miss your face and talking to you. You made me smile again" now I just frown and slug around I guess you don't care. Calls out for him as he disappears into a shadow in the mist but deepen my heart I know that he has feelings for me he is just masking it making him a hypocrite and a liar but at the same time who is really lieing is it me or him. Hearing songs that make me happy have a power to make me cry at the same time am I the one calling out for him or is it him calling out for me but he only knows what he is doing I am sitting watching tv and being me not lieing who I am i just want to be happy but what is happy if you don't know what you want all I know is that I want is to be loved by someone and love them back.