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Hallucinating In Gold

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Poetry about a year of love, loss, pain, and beauty. Even the bad parts were somewhat beautiful.

I had slipped back into my disorder
Fell in love for the first time
Fought with my depression 
Turned to drugs and became addicted 
Found the spiritual meaning to life 
Became confident and fucked around 

It was an ongoing struggle. However, I turned my pain into art...

Enjoy my messy 2019 :)All Rights Reserved

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Poetry is my voice The words are hard say....but easy to write,and glad to share my plight,cause I write what I feel,and what I write is real,so real not sure I'll heal. and please do read my other books...drowning in depression,dear broken souls and the rest...go to my profile to find them....thanks love you💕

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Mai Agar Kahoon ~ An Echo of hearts

✧ 𝐉𝐚𝐢𝐬𝐞 𝐕𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐚𝐯𝐚𝐧 𝐦𝐞𝐢𝐧 𝐁𝐚𝐧𝐬𝐢 𝐤𝐢 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐡𝐮𝐫 𝐭𝐚𝐚𝐧 𝐡𝐨, 𝐖𝐚𝐢𝐬𝐞 𝐡𝐢 𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐚 𝐩𝐲𝐚𝐚𝐫 𝐦𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐝𝐢𝐥 𝐤𝐚 𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐚𝐚𝐧 𝐡𝐨. 𝐒𝐡𝐢𝐯-𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐯𝐚𝐭𝐢 𝐬𝐚 𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐨𝐭 𝐲𝐞𝐡 𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐞, 𝐓𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐛𝐢𝐧𝐚 𝐣𝐞𝐞𝐯𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐝𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐫𝐚 𝐬𝐚 𝐥𝐚𝐠𝐞. 𝐑𝐚𝐝𝐡𝐚-𝐊𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐧𝐚 𝐤𝐚 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐦 𝐣𝐚𝐡𝐚𝐚𝐧 𝐡𝐚𝐫 𝐬𝐚𝐚𝐧𝐬 𝐦𝐞𝐢𝐧 𝐛𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐚 𝐡𝐚𝐢, 𝐖𝐚𝐢𝐬𝐞 𝐡𝐢 𝐦𝐞𝐫𝐚 𝐝𝐢𝐥 𝐭𝐮𝐣𝐡 𝐦𝐞𝐢𝐧 𝐬𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐩𝐢𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐡𝐭𝐚 𝐡𝐚𝐢. 𝐓𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐚𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐞 𝐡𝐢 𝐦𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐝𝐢𝐧 𝐬𝐚𝐣𝐭𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐢𝐧, 𝐓𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐛𝐢𝐧𝐚 𝐬𝐚𝐛 𝐤𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐚𝐝𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐫𝐚 𝐥𝐚𝐠𝐭𝐚 𝐡𝐚𝐢.✧ ･ﾟﾟ･:༅｡.｡༅:ﾟ::✼✿　✿✼:ﾟ:༅｡.:༅｡.｡