Drowning above the surface

Summary: A teenage girl who is tired of life, starts thinking about ending it way too often. People are assholes, life is unfair, what's the point of living anyway? Some try to change her mind or ease it just like Caelum(Kay-lum) did but most of them don't even notice that something is wrong.
But Braelynn(Bray-lin) tries to stay strong, find reasons to live. Does she succeed is the question. Is there something beyond all of this? Can we really trust ourselves or are we just blinded by everything else?
You never know what people are capable of, what they are thinking of doing, so be careful what you say, or else you are going to have a death on your hands.

'Does it hurt after we die? What if we are only free when we are gone? Where do we go after that? Does God exist? Is life just a stupid game?' Questions that I soon might know the answer to.
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I said playfully 'Soo, I beat your ass' he came closer, looking challenged 'Is that so?' I tried to step back, but I hit the wall 'W-well yeah' he looked me up and down, with burning passion closed the space between us and bent down until I could feel his breath on my neck 'I never lose, Lynn' he whispered into my ear. I was so bewildered, my knees almost gave in and before I could fall, he stepped back, smirked at me and walked away as if nothing had happened.
I dislike this guy so much and yet he keeps coming back, leaving me wanting more.