Not to love you

Four years after all of the hardships and my hardworking to make myself fame, and the headline news today still make me don't believe that on my fifths years in the filming industries which I should celebrate my debut years was turned into upside-down just in a blink of an eyes.

What should I do now? Turning back time is truly impossible for me. I haved lost everything that I want the most in my life. I can't prove it to my family that this industries can't be my main career. I'm totally down and I'm lost.. in.. everything... People hates me everywhere,..