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It was under control

myrealnameisasecret

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Parts 32
Time 10h 50m

myrealnameisasecret

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Jules Hart returns to the psychiatric ward, her life has fallen apart once again. She had it under control. Or was it all just her imagination? She encounters trials and tribulations with her eating disorder recovery, being forced into situations like no other; ending in painful repercussions and unhealthy coping mechanisms. After deciding she no longer wants help, Jules escapes the psychiatric ward; resulting in her attempting to take her own life. The consequence of her actions, broke Tom's heart in the process, all the while he held her sick body. Her life has led her down the path of having to recover from not only the torturous eating disorder, but the addictive self harm and torment of the suicidal ideation. Let's just hope Jules gets her happy ending...

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"GET OFF ME! GET THE HELL OFF ME! I DON'T LIKE BEING TOUCHED! GET THE FUCK OFF ME. TOM PLEASE HELP ME. TOM! PLEASE GET THEM OFF ME. I'M SO SCARED!" Jules's fragile body was making a forceful connection with the cold and unsympathetic ground. Her bloodline exiting and tainting her body and all of the surroundings. Her painful and emotional screams echoed the white corridor, while Jules's body shook and shivered, and dizzy spells with blurry covered eyes; forced her body and mind to experience a feeling of disconnection. The fit of fear that swirled in the pit of Jules's stomach made her head jolt violently side to side, along with front and back; causing her forehead to strike the floor. 

~TW: Eating disorder, suicide and self harm mentioned throughout~All Rights Reserved

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Escape

I quickly grabbed my keys and left the apartment to head towards my car. It was already dark outside, but it wasn't cold, I didn't need a jacket. I got in my car, and put the key in the ignition, when I looked in the rear view mirror and saw a pair of brown eyes. My eyes went wide, but I couldn't even blink before he laced his fingers around my throat from behind. A scream wanted to leave my lips, but he put his other hand over my mouth to muffle it. His lips ghosted over my ear as he whispered: "I wouldn't do that if I were you, Lucy." HIGHEST RANKS: #1 in hostage - 21/07/17 #1 in threatening - 21/08/04 #1 in diabetes - 21/08/21 #1 in anxious - 22/12/13 #1 in get away - 21/08/19 #1 in anxiety disorder - 22/06/21 #1 in terrifying - 22/07/18 #1 in plot twist - 22/08/17 #1 in character development - 22/09/07 #1 in captured - 22/11/02 #1 in shy girl - 23/04/16 #3 in gunfight - 23/03/19 #4 in escape - 22/05/07 #6 in crime - 21/08/25