Days without her(29march->27June)

It is my storyand it will be my diary,and this is real,okai i dont wanna to prolong.Really l cant understand feelings,not only my feelings all of people's feelings.Feelings are so confused,if u wanna understand and find meanings of them,u have to know phscology.Okai i start know.I love one girl so much,and she loved me too,and i dont know what happened she started to chill from me,and she wanted distance,u think that it is normal,what is weird in this topic.I have mamy phscologic problems,l am anxiety,panick disorder and ext.and doctors say me that u must be away from excited and panicked things,btw lm 16 years old.But i didnt listen ti doctors cuz l was believing that she is different from all people,okai i'll say true there were some wrongs by me in our relationship but why?why she chilled?sometimes l stopped and thought what was wrong?and and she was knowing how l love her.Idk but l wanna try again,now we dont talk with her but l'll talk with her in her birthday,and l miss her everyday everynight everyhour:(idk if i will meet with fail in future,most of my friends said me forget her,but l necer tried to forget her and lt is really impossible for me,and l can see her 3 times on the week,but l try to stop myself,oh sorry l forget her mom,her mom doesnt want her relationship with boy and she know me too,she banned me and she made her daughter for bannig me in social medias.Why did l write cuz l wanna to let people know "LOVE"is so painfull,l have many importants exams and l have no energy for doing something l chill from life.i hope our relationship will continue:'(