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Disoriented

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~My mother told me once, "Keep your head down and let others pave your path for you." I followed her advice for 15 years of my life, and where has that gotten me? Completely nowhere, except being an average 17-year-old, with severe anxiety, and depression. I'm sorry but letting my mind take me to all the lives I want to live, is how I escape reality. And letting my mind drift away to this abyss of happiness, is how I found you, Aleksander Zahn.


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