Incandescence

"Why now? Of all the time you chose, bakit ngayon pa?" I was trying so hard not to cry. He said it himself, ayaw niya akong nakikitang umiiyak.

But damn! A tear fell when he looked away from me. Nababasa ko sa kanyang mata na wala na talaga. We don't have that spark anymore. At least for him.

Then he looked at me again. There was a slight hint of sadness in his eyes.

He's staring at me. Yung mga matang naging dahilan kung bakit ako nahulog sa kanya. He has this mesmerizing eyes and yet behind those are coldness that i couldn't pinpoint why it was hidden there.

"Adara. Admit it or not. You felt it too. We're just----- It just felt like we're---" he couldn't even finish his words.

He distanced himself from me. I tried to reach for him but to no avail, I couldn't. He took three steps away from where i was standing.

That three steps made it clear that he no longer wants to be in this relationship. The three steps that's gonna take away the things we've shared for three years.

Tears fell as i remembered it was also three steps that i counted when he came to me when we first met.