From a young age, I have wanted to become a writer. I used to be a good writer, I wrote everyday about anything I could dream of, and of the things that haunted my dreams. Then life got busy. School, a job, hanging out with friends and being a fiancé are time consuming things, so writing got pushed to the back burner. This is me trying to change that.
It has been years since I have written anything, so in a moment of reflection I asked myself this, "Molly, you say you want to be a writer so badly, what are you REALLY doing to reach that goal?" Shamefully, I had to answer: nothing. I was doing nothing to reach my goal! So I came up with a small goal:
Write a poem everyday for a year.
It doesn't matter how well it is written or what it is about, as long as I'm writing, that is what counts. This goal is about helping me expand my creativity, while also improving my writing skills. Poetry is not my forte, I'm not good at writing it and I don't read much of it. So why poems? Easy, they can be about anything, are acceptable if they are short and don't take as much time as writing a book. My life is as busy as anyone's, but I want to reach my goal.
Here are 365 poems that reflect what I am feeling, thinking, or experiencing on any given day. They won't be perfect, they'll probably be silly, but they will be real. In a world full of falsehoods, my goal is to be the honest, true version of myself. Who am I? Read along and help me find out.
*Update, I haven't written everyday for a year, but I am still continuing to write what I feel. On this journey I've learning to that wrote something with true meaning, it must come from my soul. So while I'm not writing everyday, what I am writing is from my heart.
Esme
Things can become clear in a second. When I found Tanner in his office with that woman, so many things became obvious. Tanner's always held himself back from me, but now, secrets and lies come tumbling out into the light. He's never loved me and he never will. I'm no longer willing to be a placeholder in his life, and I have to end our marriage.
Tanner
I'd been married for four years to someone I didn't believe I loved because I thought I still loved another woman. A woman I had to give up when I chose to marry my wife after I got her pregnant.
Now, the other woman's back, she's divorced and is telling me it's our time to be together.
Just as soon as I divorce my wife, who's pregnant with our second child.
The allure of the past was impossible to resist, so I gave in, met her at my office and my wife found us just...after.
So many things became clear to me even before I looked into my wife's devastated eyes.
What had I done?
I knew what I'd done, and now I had to prove to my wife that she's the one I want.