Victims Disorder

Talking about my faults while catching myself out and or contradicting myself in a cynical, grandiose manner with a feel of relation towards inner self doubt and intent towards a narcissistic personality of Ego, self sabotage, depression, miscommunication between self and others and internal ideals over wants more then needs to feel instant gratification in a generation of beliefs that change for convenience to fit in externally and struggle with internal acceptance towards who we can or could be or to see in ourselves what we judge and dislike about other people as a reflection of self out onto someone else not realizing it's a way to vent my own problems without blaming myself so I can grow as a person.