The Hikaru Curse

I am a noble from Japan forced to play a part I don't want. I was forced to become part of the empress' harem while my brother is forced to become one of her ministers.

I know I must do this to protect my country, but I cannot give the empress what she desires of me. The curse prevents me from doing so.

A curse to make the male seem feminine haunts my family in every way. It binds us to miserable lives either watching others enjoy happiness or living a life of embarrassment.

When I see her all my fears and walls come crashing down. I want to give her all she desires, but I don't. My heart and mind struggle in an endless fight every time I see her.

Will the empress learn of our actions? What will be the consequences? Will the curse be the end of me?