My lifeline

I always wanted a boy to love me for me, I never thought I'd find one. I have issues and I can't shake them. I've tried with guys before.
But it never took, it never seemed to happen. So I thought I was better off alone, just me myself and I. Till the one day I met him. What would he become?
Would he run when he found out my issues? Would he use me? Abandon me? Disappear?
I don't know I'm scared and here we are.