Vivid Memories

I was in grade 10 when I was 16 years old.
My life changed because of one tragedy.
I have my very first suitor that time, and he knows my pain.
my older sister got raped inside our house.
you know what's more painful?
my cousin's son did that.
Gusto kong maging kriminal nung panahon na yan.
Cause damn it! I was there!
magkatabing kwarto lang ang tinutulugan namin. but I was not able to wake up during that mystery of my sister.
and because of that, I always blame my self cause I didn't do anything to stop that. I am sleeping while my sister, in another room got raped.
That's how my miserable life starts.
umalis sila at iniwan akong mag isa sa Bahay.
they are thinking about my sister's image in our hometown, about the trauma she may have by staying in this place.
just imagine my pain when I was left alone in our house.

I am the last born of our family by the way.
siguro nga dahil sa nangyari na yun noon, doon ako natuto na maging independent. Lumayo ang loob ko sa lahat. Even my family, I can't be comfortable to their side.

pakiramdam ko ay hindi ako importante nang mga panahon na yan.
Imagine, I was just 16, left alone.
Hindi manlang ba nila naisip na baka may mangyaring masama saakin sa Bahay dahil naiwan akong mag isa??
But now, I don't think that way again.
I am more better than I was.
and my life began with that.

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A/N: Hello guys! I just wanna share this story to you.
this story inspired by my own life. so feel free to ride this roller coaster ride of my life.