PAINLESS AND PAINFUL
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Last published Fri, Apr 23, 2021
Life seemed to be perfect to River. One event. Everything changed. The train derailed from its beautiful surroundings heading straight for a bottomless cliff. River would be happy falling into oblivion, if it wasn't for her sister. Her only goal being her safety.
Something happens and everything seems to be right back on track. But why does she feel unsure?
On the outside Beck seems like a new person. His past behind, or so it seems...Something is still broken inside him. No one knows except for him.
What if Beck sees right through her strong girl demeanour?
What if River can see through his "I'm okay" façade?
What if they like what they see?
What if it takes the broken to fix the unfixable?
..............................................
"I don't care if I fall to the bottomless pit, Beck. As long as she is safe." her voice cold, like she means it. Something inside me breaks, glass shattering noise.
"What if I don't want you to fall?" she stares surprised at me. I take a few steps closer until we are inches apart. Her back to the wall, my body pressing her's.
"Why should I care about what you want?" Her breath is shallow. Her jaw clenches. I lean into her, the tips of our noses touching. I gulp.
"You do care about me, just like I care about you." I say exposing her blatant lie, we are way past the caring stage and she well knows it. Just as I do.
"You know?" I swallow the lump in my throat trying to find the words. "I don't believe in fate," I whisper feeling her breath against my lips. "but if it exists, if you believe in it... I'm sure it's written somewhere." She stays quiet her eyes watching me intently.
"What's written?" Her shaky breath screams at me to touch her. To bury myself in her. Inside her. To melt our bodies together and never break apart.
"You and I. You fall I fall River. That's how it goes for me."
TRIGGER WARNING: rape, drug addiction, overdose, depression, suicidal thoughts, anxiety. A NEWBIE WRITER.
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