always death

all I see is life, now I see death since I was a kid not at a great age either.
death they say is peaceful, I tend to agree, and life is hard I most definitely agree with them about that part. I can't help but wonder when my time will officially be to go out of this world and to the next life or where ever I go heaven, maybe even hell who knows I do it's just a dark abyss it's nothing fancy like they say heaven is or it's nothing like a burning ember like hell.

where did I go, where are you, am I done, have you made your life the way you wanted or do you want to lie again, far away is where we are we never live a life we want. Don't start that I've lived my life to the fullest when in all reality you haven't or the I didn't like my life even the tinniest bit.