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equanimity

ifuckingloveburritos

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Reads 273,364
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Parts 87
Time 13h 23m

ifuckingloveburritos

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e•qua•nim•ity 
mental calmness, composure, and evenness of temper, especially in a difficult situation 


"yeah and your ass almost died on me" i chuckled while i pulled jayden closer to my body. 

"and if i did?" she asked me quietly. 

"i don't think i would recover" i whispered. "what am i gonna do without my soulmate?"


after a horrible car accident, billie and jayden continue to grow their love for each other. 

billies music career grows surprisingly fast while jayden is right by her the whole way. later through the years, they realize that the both of them aren't going anywhere.

not now, not ever.  

who knew a second chance can lead to all this?


TRILOGY to "trouble" and "tranquility"All Rights Reserved

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Nimrod // B.J.A Fan fic by PrivateAIe

Sometimes, there can be situations where home doesn't feel quite like home. Naturally, it's instinct to go searching for a place that gives you all the comfort and the warmth the walls you live in could never give. Sometimes, home can be a place that makes you feel valid. A place that makes you feel safe and secure. "Home" is any place that lets you forget the rest of the world is in flames, even if it's just for two minutes. But sometimes, your only option comes to leaving home. When my home wasn't home, and he was what it never could be. Does that make it easier to leave? Or will it drive me insane and force me to stay. And all times, there comes a part where you depart from home. But when it's a person who finds home in you too and not a place, do you still have to leave? - "Quit it!" I snapped Turning around, my eyes were boring into his. As he smirked. Still clicking his pen. "What's wrong?" He asked, his smirk getting bigger. "You clicking your pen you Nimrod!" "Nimrod?" He asked me laughing. "I haven't heard that in a while." He looked away. "Yeah whatever, just stop with that!" - Sometimes, love stories... don't always go right. -40,564 words-

𝐒𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐵𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑎𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑛𝑎 | 𝐁.𝐄. by greylish

"You've never listened to my music before? What the fuck, how?" Billie asked confused. "As I said, I just never got a chance to listen to it I guess," I replied sheepishly chuckling, rubbing the back of my neck nervously. "Well, that changes today," Billie said surprised but excited. She got up from the couch anxiously and grabbed my hand, causing me to get up from the couch and follow her, still hand in hand. ~~~ Can a Celebrity/Singer-Songwriter really fall in love with a roadie? Can somebody really fall in love with a nobody? ~~~ AU (Alternate Universe); Though some characters are real, this is fiction. Keep that in mind. Will contain explicit language, depression, anxiety episodes, violence, smoking, drinking, trauma, and real-life events that occur. +18 Votes and Comments help me a ton, so please feel free to do so. ~~~ Rankings: #1 on #roadie ; 10/26/20 #1 on #patrickoconnell ; 12/25/20 #1 on #maggiebaird ; 12/28/20 #1 on #messages ; 12/30/20 #1 on #touring ; 6/15/21 #1 on #finneas ; 7/10/22 #3 on #tour ; 4/1/22 #3 on #billie ; 12/02/23 #5 on #singer-songwriter ; 12/21/20 #7 on #billieeilish ; 12/21/20 #7 on #messaging ; 12/30/20

𝙍𝙀𝘿 // 𝘽𝙄𝙇𝙇𝙄𝙀 𝙀𝙄𝙇𝙄𝙎𝙃 𝙁𝘼𝙉𝙁𝙄𝘾𝙏𝙄𝙊𝙉 by bellyxbilz

WARNING: book contains many sensitive topics - death used to scare me a lot actually, but i'm not scared of it anymore. in fact getting my eyelashes pulled out by my eyelash curler scares me more, but guess what? - created a pinterest board for the book to familiarize the vibe (there maybe some foreshadowing in there or you may consider minor spoilers) - @bellyxbilz 🏅 ACHIEVEMENTS : 🏅 #1 billie 🏅 #1 billieeilish 🏅 #1 eilish 🏅 #1 hairsalon 🏅 #1 dyedhair 🏅 #1 blohsh 🏅 #1 electricguitar 🏅 #1 dontsmileatme 🏅 #1 billieoconnell 🏅 #1 ilomilo 🏅 #1 tour 🏅 #1 claudia 🏅 #1 finneas 🏅 #1 oconnell 🏅 #1 happierthanever 🏅 #3 band

a work of art by christinegwrites

When I met her, I fell in love with her smile. With her laugh, which she gave so free and loud, or soft and breathy in my ear. I'd fallen in love with her hands as they traced the air in front of my favorite paintings. With her fingertips as they braided her soft black hair. I'd fallen in love with her icy blue eyes, the dimple in her cheek, the smell of her spicy sweet perfume at the hollow of her throat, poisonous to me. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Lucy Stewart is a textile artist in love with art of all kinds, but especially those that play on dark emotions. While sitting in a museum one evening, one of her very favorite such artists steps into her life. Together, they will create an art form neither of them have yet to experience alone... **New parts published on Wednesdays and Saturday's** CONTAINS: graphic consensual sex, language, kink Trigger warnings will be listed at the top of each chapter (there won't be many)

Bruised Black & Blue // Billie Eilish by s1ncerelyours

Rowan, a girl of a coy and passive nature, did not expect to be flung into someone else's life so abruptly- and graphically at that. It could have been anyone, but for a reason unknown to her, the universe chose her. The life she stepped into belonged to another girl, that to Rowan's dismay, was unaware of how prized of a possession she truly was. She did not value every breath she took or even the supple skin on her body. But her helpless soul was not to blame. Billie struggled with a list of issues doctors of all kinds were unable to diagnose. Everyday was a fight against her conscience and she feared, a day would come in which she would lose. In a way, the pair were star-crossed. Rowan knew the severity of Billie's situation and her undeniable inability to be helped, but still, she could never forgive herself if she had turned a blind eye and walked away after that single, dark and rainy night. She often questioned whether or not her actions were fueled by an honorable sense of selflessness or its much more complicated counterpart- selfishness.

tranquility by ifuckingloveburritos

tran•quil tranquil: free from disturbance; calm "you make me feel tranquil" she whispered while tracing small patterns on my arm. "i'm not trouble anymore" i told her quietly. "all this just for you jay" maybe they were soulmates... SEQUEL to 'trouble'

WATCH by AvocadoGang2

Does a hardcore fan know what happens when she meets her idol completely out of the blue? What about when it's planned by her bestfriend? What will happen with the problems she has? Will she solve them alone or along the way to gain Billie's heart? I try to make these as realistic as I can. But yk. Gotta twist it a little bit. 😭 Accomplishments: 🥇#1 in Eilish 🥇#1 in Billieeilishpiratebairdoconnell

Out Of My League by lonescenes

Y/n is somewhat a regular 17 year-old. She goes to sixth form, and hates it like every other teenager, comes home to her family and just gets on with her monotonous life. She has a couple of friends, but rarely goes to hang out with them; Y/n's more of an introvert, a 'prefers their own company' type of person. That is until it comes to her love life. Y/n's never really had a relationship but longs for someone to cuddle in bed with. She's only just come to terms with the fact that she's a lesbian, and at the moment has her eyes on one woman: Billie Eilish. Of course, Billie must be way out of her league, right? She's one of the most famous singers on the planet, and Y/n really doesn't have much going for her. With Billie's concert coming just around the corner, Y/n's about to stand in the same room as her biggest crush. And who knows, maybe both of their lives will change... PG Rated *explicit language*

But if one of us dies//Billie eilish by syedyemyguy

While Jamie struggles with depression, self love snd acceptance from past traumas and heart break from a past lover, thinking she could never find love again.A young pop star across the world saves millions of lives with her music including.. Jamie was one of them. Will she call in love again? Will she make it through her battles alone? (TW this story contains a lot of talk about mental health, substance abuse, violence. If you are triggered by any of these topics this story is not for you)

jellybean • billie eilish by c0kelover

she's going to die. my arms instantly clung onto her for dear life, something doesn't feel right about this, i don't feel safe without her. "i love you my little jellybean." she whispered in my ear. achieved: #1 eilish #1 patrickoconnell #1 billiefan #1 maggiebaird #1 maggie #1 chronicillness

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𝐒𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐵𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑎𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑛𝑎 | 𝐁.𝐄. cover

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Bruised Black & Blue // Billie Eilish cover

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Nimrod // B.J.A Fan fic

Sometimes, there can be situations where home doesn't feel quite like home. Naturally, it's instinct to go searching for a place that gives you all the comfort and the warmth the walls you live in could never give. Sometimes, home can be a place that makes you feel valid. A place that makes you feel safe and secure. "Home" is any place that lets you forget the rest of the world is in flames, even if it's just for two minutes. But sometimes, your only option comes to leaving home. When my home wasn't home, and he was what it never could be. Does that make it easier to leave? Or will it drive me insane and force me to stay. And all times, there comes a part where you depart from home. But when it's a person who finds home in you too and not a place, do you still have to leave? - "Quit it!" I snapped Turning around, my eyes were boring into his. As he smirked. Still clicking his pen. "What's wrong?" He asked, his smirk getting bigger. "You clicking your pen you Nimrod!" "Nimrod?" He asked me laughing. "I haven't heard that in a while." He looked away. "Yeah whatever, just stop with that!" - Sometimes, love stories... don't always go right. -40,564 words-