Paradoxes
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Last published Sun, May 29, 2022
No. I'm not talking about math or English literature paradoxes. I hate math but I'm somehow good at it. Well, this book talks about my life. Oh by the way I'm Jane and my life is a paradox. Let's see why:
1. I look sorted out. I'm not. I'm actually pretty messed up. I'm questioning my sexuality while people around me fall in love.
2. I'm the therapist of my school and sometimes my family too. But I have depression and anxiety which doesn't seem to get any better.
3. I'm overweight, a tomboy and a nerd. This makes me even more 'exclusive' in my school. But remember I'm not afraid to tell you what I think about you.
So you see I'm not at all your average girl; au contraire I'm below average. I'm a plain Jane. You see what I did there ¬‿¬
My friends Isabella and Benjamin say my sense of humour sucks but I beg to differ.¯\_( ツ )_/¯
Join us on this journey of paradoxes i.e; life.
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