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A Disordered Belief.

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This is a rewrite of a similar story I made when I was around 11 - 12 that's story was called 99 Reasons And A Ghost. I renewed the entire premise - but this has always stuck out to me, the idea of rewriting this and what potential the story could've had, and so Im working on this now.

A Disordered Belief is about a teenager named Emma with her strange mother named Mary, who are both in this religion called The Order that's actually a secret cult.

Something happens on her 14th birthday that she doesn't quite remember as shes now away from the tiny world she knows, and is now trying to remember what exactly happened on that fateful day, while uncovering the secrets, the controversy and the truth behind her entire life.

Will she accept reality or continue to stay in her Disordered Belief?

That's the basis of the story.All Rights Reserved

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Secret Mind ✓ by sadlyish

"She's right! She's right! I don't cut in the right spot." My hold tightens on my wrist. The red blood oozes out of my wrist. I slide up and grab my bag and run out of the bathroom. I don't care if people can see the blood I just want to get out. I race for the doors and shove through people. I earn a lot of glares and glances that read "weirdo." I ignore and push. I run to my house and lock myself in my bathroom. I don't bother closing the front door cause I don't care if people come in to kill me. I grab my razor and cut deep cuts into my arm and wrists falling into a pool of my own blood. • • • Evangeline has a great life. Friends? Check! Good grades? Check! Loving family? Check! But what if she has secrets that nobody knows of? What if the only thing she can trust is her secret diary? What if slowly but surly she's dying inside? How can an innocent twelve year old deal with these problems? Will she keep on facing these problem till the day she breaks. Her school burns down forcing her into a different school to meet different people and she has to fit into a different lifestyle as well. Meet Evangeline. Now at 17 years of age in a new high school. Not all girls anymore. No uniform. Meet Drake. Your classic bad-boy. He just moved to Saint Abigail high school. He is assigned partners with the quiet, calm, unnoticed Evangeline. As time progresses he finds that she isn't as happy on the inside as she is on the outside. Can he save her? Or is it too late? • • • Some rude language. Depression and cutting. Don't say I didn't warn you. Okay, I wrote this at the start of this year (may 2016) and I had very poor writing skills. This book hasn't been edited and the whole idea is cliche so I wouldn't recommend you read it but I'm not stopping you, either. Read at your own risk. • • • Copyright © 2017 by -moonlust. All rights reserved.

Salted Caramel Coffee (COMPLETED!) by shaynaliza

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Live Wired (on indefinite hold) by RisingStarx

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The Canvas by That_one__writer

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$Suicidal Attraction {Old Version} by _DarkQueen$

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