Insecure

All I wanted was peace. I guess I don't deserve that after all the torture I have been through. I can't believe I trusted her. My best friend was the most horrid person in the world. I WANT to forgive her but Colton won't let me after all that torture she put me through. I really need to thank him, but another part of me says he will let go after I tell him the truth about my crush on him for a long time. I really like him but I don't want to be known as another girl that has been with him and that girl that has been used. I feel unsteady and insecure.