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This is not a ‘boy saves the girl’ type of story. This is anything but that. No boy can save a girl like Ana Shaw. She is saveless. 
Ana Shaw has had a rough three years. After a traumatic experience when she was fifteen, she has been in and out of mental hospitals in hopes of trying to make her whole again. Now, after multiple suicide attempts and then a full year of recovery, Ana finds herself back in a patient facility, surrounded by other mentally unstable people. But really, what's wrong with wanting to die? After everything that she's been through, it's totally understandable that she wants to end her life. However, everybody around her is determined to keep her alive no matter what she wants. Will they succeed or will Ana slip through their fingers once and for all? With the help of a few people at the mental rehabilitation center that she is staying in, Ana fights to find reasons to live before it's too late.All Rights Reserved

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Silently Screaming by TheNowhereKid

"So that brings me back to the dream. I was there again, but this time, I was him. Beating some little kid, wasted out of my mind. I think the dream has to do with when I came home from that party, drunk. It scared the hell out of me, Camber. I don't want to be like him." His voice is down to a whisper, tears falling silently. "You aren't like him." -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Ever since the age of five Camber has been mute. She hasn't talked since that scarring night when her parents were murdered, and she was raped. Now, at the age of fifteen, Camber is still mute. Living in a foster home, all her foster mother would love to do is fix this 'broken girl'. But she can't. No one can. Camber would love to forget, to be normal, but she just can't. Unable to be touched without having a full fledged panic attack, she's tired of doctors poking and prodding at her. She's given up. Until he comes along. He wants to help her with her problems, and fix his own. But no one can fix the unfixable. But, maybe, against all odds, the broken boy can? Book One of the Camber Trilogy.

The Fourth Notebook by mytherapistsaid

Four teens, one hospital. Meet Cody, Grace, James, and Emma. Each is in the long term ward for different reasons. Grace is afflicted with brain tumors. Cody is a drug addict. James is suicidal. And Emma? Well for now I'll tell you she's... special. When Grace's family leaves her in the hospital to go on vacation, she is hurt. When Cody is being chased because of old mistakes, he is scared. When James' family fears him he is angry. When Emma shows up, fresh out of a terrible accident resulting in the loss of her family and amnesia, she is terrified. Their diaries can teach society acceptance. Read and live their struggles from their point of view and find out the mystery of The Fourth Notebook. In editing at the moment too. *Warning* Contains drug abuse, self-harm, depression, cancer, suicide, and death. I own all characters and the concept. Please don't steal. © elsariddlehemsworth 2014 A huge thanks to my close friend yewheart707 for the cover and the manips!

The Fire Within by XxRemember_MayexX

Sierra was a ordinary girl. She loved her life, and everyone in it. But when, Bree, the 'most popular' girl in school starts to bully her, her world changes on her. She fights the pain of the words, rejection and problems at home, but fails. She cuts, and has thoughts on suicede. But everything changes again when she gets a new friend. Cole impacts her life, saving her from suicide and helps. But will it be enough? Can Sierra find the Fire within herself? Can she learn the truth?

Teenage Sparks. by europeanbreaths

This is for all of you who feel like the world hates you. Who takes a blade to their skin. Who looks them self in the mirror and criticizes themselves. Who is hurt on the outside. Who is broken on the inside. Who feel the need to stay strong and cry by themselves in the dark emptiness. Who feel like they have no one when they are surrounded by millions. Who are hit. Who are tortured. Who are hurt. Who weep. Who need a hug from someone once in a while to unload the hurt. The pain they carry within them coiled in the disaster and wretched awakening of their tears is more than we can measure. No one but them knows the feeling and the burden they carry. I hope you read this, and feel like this has helped you. Even if one in a million love you, sometimes that one persons love can cover the other nine thousand nine hundred and ninety nine people's hate. Just know that there are people who will love you. Who will hug you. Who will let you cry on their white shirt and ruin it with your mascara or stain it with your tears. ➖➖➖➖➖➖ Gwen Holland has lead the life of abuse. Of depression. Of hurt. Bearing with her the wight of the sky. Bruises lining her stomach. Broken bones every month. Bags under her eyes from lost sleep. Patches of blue and black bruises laced like silk on her body. She has kept it all a secret with full sleeve shirts, jeans and tights. But all this is at stake when her heart finds the person to whom she can fully unload her burden on. Who can help her. But to Gwen, Allen Walker is the last person who would even understand. ➖➖➖➖➖➖ *DISCLAIMER* This story contains graphic violence, self harm and suicidal chapters. There are detailed abuse and lines that may seem inappropriate to some people. So if you feel discomfort then feel free to read something else. ➖➖➖➖➖➖

𝓗𝓸𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 by beanzgetti4

Rita becomes strict with her eating, everyday the number of calories she eats gets lower and the amount of time she does cardio gets higher. She practices of managing her starvation by distracting it and never catches a break on the scale. Nobody is aware of it, it was something Rita doesn't want her friends or family to know, hiding her body from them didn't last long. Her mother noticed the dramatic weight change on her body. She tries to help her get back to her eating and tells her many times that she's "perfectly skinny" but nothing works. Her mother puts her foot down as Rita started to get ill, her mom takes her to a mental health hospital. She deals with consequences from her nurses and other patients.

One Day Too Late by Alteration_Art

Echo's dead, no doubt about it. She hung a rope and let herself drop. So why is she still here? She's trapped on earth, and the only person who can see her is Jordan, a boy who died earlier on in the year. She's forced to watch her best friend struggle with a burden that killed her. Harmony's had a normal life up until now. She had a great best friend, decent parents, and not that much experience with tragedy. But when she gets the news that her "great best friend" killed herself on a cold, rainy night, her life is completely changed. Suddenly she's a tragedy expert, and if something isn't done she could be the next headline. Can Echo save Harmony, and herself? TRIGGER WARNING: this book deals with issues of suicide and depression. Please do not read if this is harmful to you. If any of my readers deal with these issues, or others, feel free to message me. go follow @bombpeach where this story has been featured on a reading list

Angels Can't Die by Snowy_secret__

"Arabella step down from there!" I yelled, reaching for her. I was ready to jump over the rail to grab her if I needed to. I was willing to do anything at this point. There was no telling what would happen with her gone. I was true to my words, I needed her in my life. "Angel's can't die. Right?" She turned to me one last time and smiled, a peaceful expression coming to her face before she closed her eyes and fell back towards the rushing water below. -------------------- Dylan Garcia had everything he could ask for in his life. A good mother, friends, good grades, a girlfriend. There really was nothing more he could ask for. That was, until his girlfriend took her own life. It was a horrid death that Dylan blamed on himself. He was, after all, the last person she had spoke with. If only he had stayed at her house a little bit longer. In the hopes of healing his broken soul, Dylan runs into little Arabella Seto, a girl who seemed to be lost herself. Family and school drama plague her life and she can't seem to find anyone that's willing to stick close to her. Until she meets Dylan that is. The two teens spiral into each other's lives, hoping to make the world seem a little brighter. So when Arabella is ready to take the fall, Dylan sees this as a second chance to make things right. Save a life that he couldn't before. --- Cover By: @masteroftots ⚠WARNING⚠ There is talk of suicide and self harm. There are also scenes of violence.

Altered by LuellaOpal

Have you ever met someone who alters the course of your life? For good or for bad, they've come in, given and taken, and then- BOOM! Your life was never the same. There's always a change, an altering of reality. When you meet those people, the reality that you've known your whole life is suddenly gone and a new one has taken its place. When those moments happen, there's no going back. You can try to return to the way things were but nothing, and I mean nothing, can take you back to exactly how it was. That's what happened to us. I think that's why we're still trying so desperately to get back to some sort of normalcy. Four years later and we're still on the ground, crawling, in search of the happiness that was lost that June. Summers will never be the same. Midnight walks through my neighborhood will never be the same. Field parties with bonfires and loud music will never be the same. I still don't know why you left and what lead you to the decision you made. What I do know is that we're here. We're alive and we're pushing forward to the future. A future that you're not a part of. But in some ways, I'm glad you're not a part of it. I just wish it wasn't like this. *** TRIGGER WARNING*** SA, abuse, suicide, substance abuse, and mental illness. This is a complete story that is much like life; fast, full of surprises, and not always how we want it to be. This has been a project of mine for over three years. It was self-published on Amazon, but after some issues in publication, I decided to just upload it on here. I hope you fall in love with these characters like I have. The friends in this story are trying to make names for themselves, figure out who they are, who they can trust, how to love, and how to separate themselves from a restrictive community. As in any coming of age story, they will experience growing pains... but will they survive them before its too late? PLEASE READ THE TRIGGER WARNINGS.

Dying Flame (Editing) by Mystical_Angel13

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Remember This✔ by autumnskiess

Molly has never felt safe. For four years she has lived in constant fear that the serial killer that murdered her family is coming for her. She has been moved around the country continuously, dropped off with a new foster family every couple of months that are too out of their depth to deal with her. When she is relocated back to California at seventeen, Molly has nothing left to live for. Believing that suicide is her only option, Molly makes the brave decision to end it all one fateful night . She had the perfect plan; nothing was supposed to go wrong. Just one choice, one jump, and she'd be with her family again. Charlie has never had to consider his own empathy towards strangers. He's arrogant, selfish and becomes unbearably irritated with other people's problems. But when he sees Molly standing on the edge of the bridge and ignores every part of himself that wants to walk away, something awakens inside of him that he never realized was there. Saving her was just the beginning. The two are thrown together in a world-wind friendship of hope, healing and passion as they endure the temptation of love and the danger of a sadistic killer that isn't willing to let Molly go. R E V I E W S: - "I started reading it and I could not stop until I was finished. It was a rollercoaster of emotions and events. I enjoyed everything! It is so well written, would recommend this book to everyone!" - "It's a heartfelt story that touches you deeply, and never gets boring. It's filled with everything you could ever want and more." - "Not sure I have cried this much reading ever... . Definitely the best storyline I have read in a really long time." - "Insanely intense book from beginning to end makes you cry a few times throughout absolutely amazing story." - "This was the most AMAZING story I have ever read. I laughed, I cried. It was so emotional and it was MAGNIFICENT."

Abigail by hmarieh1218

(In editing) She's depressed. She's anorexic. She's suicidal. She's insecure. Abigail has grown up with her three brothers and James, never meeting her parents, who abandoned her at birth. Her brothers were left to take care of her and keep a roof over their heads. Everyday they struggle to take care of Abigail, while working to keep them in their home. Life for them is hard. Life for Abigail is even harder. She has a dark mind and not by choice. Somewhere along the way she's developed these feelings of loneliness and hopelessness. Everyday is a struggle for her and just getting out of bed is a success. She meets Zach, a bad boy with a bad reputation. He starts off as a tutor, just to help her out, out of pity. But eventually feelings get involved and Abigail finds herself liking a boy for the first time in her life. Things get serious and she somehow learns about his drug dealing business. Everything gets hectic and Abigail doesn't know what to do with her life anymore. Or if she even wants to live.

Logan by braindeadwriter06

*TW* Contains topics and scenes of sexual assault, self-harm, abuse.* "You know you loved every second of it," I can feel the tears welling up as well as the anger building up within me. I stare at him for a while before I have to turn away from his hungry gaze. "Look I just came here to tell you that I forgive you for what you did back in Cali and I'll take you back," "You forgive me?" I yell. "I did nothing to you. You raped me! You fucking raped me! You have no right to come here and tell me that. You. Forgive. Me. You traumatized me. What you did to me tore me up inside and was eating away at me until I tried to kill myself. And when I told people they didn't believe me. I had to listen to so many people talk about how great a guy you were and how I clearly just regretted sleeping with you. You are a monster. You made me hate myself for something that was never my fault. You have caused me so much pain and suffering," I pause to take a deep breath. "So you don't get to come here to my school and tell me you forgive me. You don't get to make me feel bad about coming forward. The only thing I regret is ever thinking you were a good person." _____________________________________________ Logan Young is a 16-year-old girl about to start her senior year in a brand new town. The past year has been tough and her family moved to give her a fresh start. Her life before the move had been hard and she had been spiraling. She quickly makes new friends and even enemies. She builds up walls to protect herself. But what happens when an unlikely person helps her to tear down her walls and heal. Will she be able to survive in this new place and keep her secrets intact?

Freedom of Sketch by recoveringrebecca

-Completed- After seventeen-year-old artist Shiloh Mackenzie is accused of assaulting her classmate and setting her school on fire, her dark and graphic portfolio catches the principal's attention. Suspended pending a psychiatric evaluation, Shiloh meets Dr. Fox, who commits her to a residential treatment facility after viewing an alleged self-portrait of Shiloh committing suicide. Shiloh finds herself surrounded by girls struggling with eating disorders, self harm, and drug use. When tragedy strikes, Shiloh is forced to examine her life from the point of view of the people she's judged. What will she find - and will it push her over the edge? SOME MIGHT FIND THIS STORY TO BE TRIGGERING. PROCEED WITH CAUTION.

Dear Ana, by IAMpandax

"I fell into darkness but I didn't mind, I liked it." Amy Adams thought everything was alright, but when she heard her very best friend Rose committed suicide, her world turned upside down. Amy couldn't understand, why? But Amy found Rose's diary at her wake and everything became clear. Rose was anorexic. Rose wrote about her two guardians Ana and Mia, they helped her, or something. Amy didn't understand a thing, but not for long. Because Amy would also meet her fate with the two angels of death. Just like Rose. Amy has a hard time fitting in after her only connection to a social life left her alone. Amy get's lost and tries to save herself. But how can you pull yourself out of a hole where you can't see the edge? Amy does make new friends and she even falls in love but everything is on the verge of falling apart. How does she plan on keeping her 'new habit' a secret? and when will Amy really understand?

Here; by BreannaMae11

Ever heard of the girl that has been through hell, and is still in hell? No? Oh, well, that's because she doesn't talk about her life. Besides the events that happen to her that is played out in public. She never talks about her family life, her personal thoughts, or anything, for that matter. She stays to herself. And has maybe one friend. Well. That girl is me ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Anna Arnolds is not a normal girl, she's far from normal. Her home life is tragic and horrible. Never once has she been truly happy at home since her biological mother passed. But that was many years ago. On the break of being 18, all she wants is to be free and away from Coralie, her abusive step mother. With being abused at home, it doesn't help that Ace Hart bullies her at school and outside of school. But what happens when she becomes friends with Sara Evans and her brother, Tyler? ~~~~~~~~~ TRIGGER WARNING. Contents may trigger some people. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK. This story is very tragic. SHORT STORY #1

Falling Apart by 1_Will_3

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Countdown by RadioSpirit

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Cold Water by adaline_meadows

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Silently Screaming

"So that brings me back to the dream. I was there again, but this time, I was him. Beating some little kid, wasted out of my mind. I think the dream has to do with when I came home from that party, drunk. It scared the hell out of me, Camber. I don't want to be like him." His voice is down to a whisper, tears falling silently. "You aren't like him." -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Ever since the age of five Camber has been mute. She hasn't talked since that scarring night when her parents were murdered, and she was raped. Now, at the age of fifteen, Camber is still mute. Living in a foster home, all her foster mother would love to do is fix this 'broken girl'. But she can't. No one can. Camber would love to forget, to be normal, but she just can't. Unable to be touched without having a full fledged panic attack, she's tired of doctors poking and prodding at her. She's given up. Until he comes along. He wants to help her with her problems, and fix his own. But no one can fix the unfixable. But, maybe, against all odds, the broken boy can? Book One of the Camber Trilogy.