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Where Are My Eyes If They're Not Forward?

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Reads 118,288
Votes 3,425
Parts 30
Time 4h 27m

Mature

"I think about dying." And the details Maya Bishop left unsaid ... until an Italian brunette gives up her couch. 

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Based off of Maya's confessions to the psychiatrist in 3x10, but not following the cannon timeline. 

Trigger warning- a glimpse of what it feels like to be passively suicidal.

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