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Where Are My Eyes If They're Not Forward?

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Reads 118,358
Votes 3,381
Parts 31
Time 4h 28m

Mature

"I think about dying." And the details Maya Bishop left unsaid ... until an Italian brunette gives up her couch. 

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Based off of Maya's confessions to the psychiatrist in 3x10, but not following the cannon timeline. 

Trigger warning- a glimpse of what it feels like to be passively suicidal.

Rights belong to shondaland. This is a work of FanFiction.All Rights Reserved

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Meet me in the Middle by MiqMenace

**Book 1 in "The Middle" Trilogy** Maya Bishop's worst fear came true. Her wife left her because of how broken she is. She doesn't want to give up on their love story yet, and she will get better for Carina. Dr. Carina DeLuca hates that her wife couldn't get help when she begged her to. It had to take her leaving for Maya to go see a therapist. Is it too late to forgive and trust again? This is an alternate storyline after the events of Station 19's 6x09 and how they could find their way back to each other. Can they set their differences aside and find a way to meet each other in the middle? This is a work of fanfiction, all rights go to Shondaland Trigger Warnings: Abuse, Alcoholism, Anxiety, Depression, Emotional Abuse, Fire, PTSD, SMUT, Suicide

Maya's Next Adventure by greys_stationfics

Fire Captain Maya Bishop got ready for her shift at Station 19 and went to work just like every other shift she had done. However, during a call with her long-term girlfriend Dr Carina Deluca she heard what sounded like crying coming from outside the station. Upon further investigation, she discovered the noise was coming from a child. She took the child into her office and quickly formed a bond with them That's when Maya realised, this child was to be the next adventure in her life... Inspired by lovatic_f story "Maya's Next Step" (when coming up with the name for my story I didn't realise how similar they were until after I posted it) With that, I am in no way going to copy or steal their ideas. I was just very inspired by what they wrote.

The Accident by Musicgirl1120

Engine 19 gets into an accident and Maya gets seriously injured. Will she be ok? Originally published on AO3.

In love with a murderer by thespampinatos

I am Maya Bishop, and I am a murderer That's it, call it what you want but I murdered him. Those who will try to find a way to make what I did right are simply too open-minded to live in such a world. I could've run, I could've let him kill me but no, I chose to kill him. _________________________ This is a fanfiction but you do not need to watch the show to understand it, I'm basically only using the names!

Death Is Futile by Scissor-me-timbers

When Maya finally reaches the clouds, she learns that maybe the clouds weren't as comforting as they'd always seemed. Instead she finds herself being guided by some now dead but important people, as they show her how her death would have affected everyone. Will she really die? Will this teach her to stay alive? Will she have a second chance?

Just Breathe (Marina) by Calzona-Jemily

Maya and carinas daughter Viviana, suffers from both depression and anxiety, her parents just don't know to what extent until eventually It all becomes too much and Viviana reaches out to her moms This story will be mostly told from Vivianas perspective but will also have Carina and Mayas ⚠️This story will also contain many trigger warning topics. throughout so I will not be putting them at the beginning of chapters, so please know this before reading⚠️ ⚠️Mature for deep topics, such as Self-Harm, mature language, and more ⚠️ #1 Station 19. 04/19/22 #1 SH 04/30/22 #1 Marina 05/20/22 #1 Maya 06/19/22 #1 Greys Anatomy #1 station 19 #1 Depression 10/23/22 #1 Carina Deluca

No Going Back: A Marina Story by kyeee2211

When Maya is found cheating on Carina, their entire life's are flipped upside down. Will Carina ever learn to trust Maya again? What does this mean for their marriage? Also available to read on archive of your own (ao3) <3 #7: Station 19 🔥 #9: Marina 🔥

You Saved Me - A Stefanielle Story by nicolexjs

"It's not much, but it's home, for now..." Stefania places the blondes bag onto the living room floor of the apartment. "We have a spare bedroom through here," Gesturing for Danielle to follow her into the third bedroom. The room was pretty standard, a double bed tucked into a corner of the room with a nightstand and a lamp. Fairy lights hanging from the corners of the ceiling. A mirrored wardrobe on the opposite side of the room. It was cosy. "This is perfect, hopefully I won't be in your hair for too long!" Dani speaks, sitting on the edge of the double bed, the fresh sheets feeling crisp under her touch. "Thank you," "Stop thanking me... You have been through so much, it is the very least I could do," Stefania lays her hand on her shoulder, squeezing sympathetically. Sending chills down her body. "Maybe we could get to know each other, on better circumstances?"

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Sex, Surgery, & the Mountain Trail | Station 19 by NightWalker899

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