The color of grief varies.
For some, it's red, hot, vengeful, anger. For others, it's black, a solid nothingness. But when those feelings settle, it's always a deep, navy, blue. Water you dive into, to reach for the bottom, to struggle, to maybe drown. A wave that crashes until it's terraformed the mind to accustom to the harsh tides.
Perhaps that was the color of the sky on November 10th, 2020, when Jeon Jungkook took his last breath, when the world stopped breathing, when the last great dynasty crumbled. Perhaps it has never brightened since. Perhaps that dusty, gold encrusted blue, has bled past the emotion of grief into everything else. Into the inhale and exhales of every breath.
Bangtan doesn't know any better than blue. From the bottom, there is the deepest, nearly black, shade that colored in that fateful night. A few rows up and it's that navy, manageable but residing in the back of their minds like a childhood book with their fingerprints all over the pages. And there's miracles, the brightest tint, so close that it's almost white.
But never that pure. There's a price for everything. For the faintest taste of peace, sometimes, it's sanity.
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Originally on AO3 as two separate works 'to the one who will never see this' and 'to the one I swore would never see this.'
Please refer to these works for extra tagging for any possible triggers.
(PUBLISHING AGAIN MY DELETED BOOK KING'S QUEEN )
"Alpha, I would never accept this marriage. You are already married to me. How can you marry again when your spouse is still alive?" Jimin said it to Jungkook in a slightly louder and hoarse voice. his throat is heavy because tears wants to flow but he is holding them with so much efforts.
"OMEGA, DON'T CROSS YOUR LIMITS. WE ARE ROYALS; WE CAN HAVE AS MANY WIVES AS WE WANT UNDER THE CUSTOM OF HAREM BECAUSE WE ARE CAPABLE ENOUGH TO PROTECT THEM TO FEED THEM, AND I AM PHYSICALLY STRONG ENOUGH TO FULFILL THE OMEGA'S NEEDS, INCLUDING YOU, JEON JIMIN. YOU HAVE TO ACCEPT IT; YOU HAVE NO CHOICE. THIS IS THE WAY OF THE WORLD; YOU ARE BOUND TO FOLLOW IT QUEEN,,
I AM JEON JUNGKOOK, THE KING OF GANGWON. ANNOUNCING THAT JI-YOO IS MY WIFE. EVERYONE SHOULD RESPECT HER AND ADDRESS HER WITH THE TITLE OF THE KING'S WIFE. YOU ARE NO EXCEPTION. JEON JIMIN. YOU ARE BOUND TO FOLLOW THE ROYALS CUSTOMS AND TRADITIONS; THERE ARE NO ARGUMENTS LEFT. NOW DISMISSED.'
Jimin was the first one to leave the place. without speaking even a word. This silent treatment of Jimin angered Jungkook even more. how Jimin can run away like this.
***ATTENTION***
THIS WHOLE STORY IS COMPLETELY MY IMAGINATION, I HAVEN'T TAKEN ANY IDEA OR REFERENCE FROM OTHERS. IF THERE ARE ANY SIMILARITIES IT'S A PURE COINCIDENCE DON'T COME TO COMPLAINT ABOUT IT.
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