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Reads 14,602
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Parts 41
Time 4h 18m

urlocalbrowngall

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[ "your the only person in this world I don't hate" Spencer admitted, you turned around slowly, the rain running down Spencer's hair causing it to dangle in his face. "And I hate that I don't hate you"

His lips clashed against yours, the darkness in your life seemed to vanish, drain away as if it was never there. He pulled you in closer and your nightmares slipped away into the back of your mind. Making them barely even an after thought, it was the first time you felt you could breathe, no amount of booze or nicotine could compare to this feeling ]



You've worked at the bau for just about a year, you get along with everyone and everyone likes you except for one of your coworkers. You think he is a brag, a know it all and all together suffocating, he thinks your a  over the top people pleaser with an attitude problem. 

After one completely unpredictable case, where the Spencer is taken hostage. You start to notice him become different, quickly realising he had developed a drug problem. He is reluctant to take you help, but as you and Spencer grow closer, despite you best efforts. Demons from your past begin to  infiltrate your present, the things you choose to ignore refused to be oppressed any longer. 

You were a distraction to each other's , horrific pasts, a way to cope with day-to-day life and he was addicting. 

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Fanfic takes place around season 4,5 glasses Reid <3 with the season 7 cast! 

TW: mentions of drugs, alcohol, etc :)All Rights Reserved

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