Ambivalent
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Last published Thu, May 6, 2021
"No no, it wasn't your fault, I'm ok that's all that matters, but if it hadn't been for him, I don't know what I would have done." I said, trying to convince her that I was okay.
"Who's he?" Brooke asked as she gave me a blank look.
"I don't know, but Brooke, I need to find him. The way he looked into my eyes I felt something. Something real.", She rolled her eyes at me sarcastically.
"I'm serious Kirstine. I've never felt something like that before, even with Aiden.", I admitted truthfully.
"Caroline, what makes you think it's going to be that easy to find him? You don't know his name or who he is friends with. I believe you, but if you ever are going to find him it's going to be through luck." she said sympathetically.
Barry jumped up from the couch just as I heard a knock at the door...
Disclaimer: This story talks about a lot of heavy topics, regarding mental health, trauma and assault. Please please assess your mental health and stop if you need to. We are in no way trying to romanticize or misrepresent any of the disorders represented or explained in the book. This is our first book and we hope you will bear with us as we navigate this experience; please let us know in a kind way, if we misrepresent any topics as this is all a learning and growing experience for us. There is dark material and mature content, proceed with caution :)
Also, these characters and storylines are all fictional and any relation to real-life events is purely coincidental... enjoy!
Trigger Warning- Disorders- DID, Anxiety Disorder, OCD, BPD/NPD, compulsive/pathological lying disorder, Insomnia, ED
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