I hate me too

"I hate me too" by Xquana

This is for someone I really care about, and I thought they cared about me too.

I was hurt that they didn't think of me how I thought of them, and I over shared something very personal about me.

I didn't realise I put pressure on them saying what I did.

And I want to dodge the bullet and say they asked me to say... but it was me who brought it up, trying to seek attention so they would think of me as a person who's vulnerable, and maybe they'd become closer to me.

I feel sick with guilt that I made them feel pressurised, and that's exactly what they don't need right now... but I'm selfish.

I won't mention their real name as they may one day find this.

But I'm sorry for what I did...

I thought you felt the same way about me and I was hurt...

I'm sorry...

I really do... hate me too...