I Don't Know What To Call This Mess
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Ongoing, First published May 06, 2021
I'm just gonna shamelessly vomit my entire life story here in the belief that I'm gonna remain anonymous. I'm gonna be completely honest about everything shitty I've ever done. I'm gonna leave a character reference here. (these are not real names ofcourse)
The girls :
first group of best friends:
Mika
Ray
Sia
Ino 
myself 

In later years only Sia remained.
First boyfriend : Rick 
Second boyfriend: (I really wanted to name him dick) let's just go with Mark 
Third boyfriend: Fred 
The other boys are either gonna be my crushes, best friends or hook ups or someone who played a small role. I'll give a pre description before I bring in the person. 

Second group of best friends in later stages: 
Sia 
Sami
Miya

This one girl who has not left my side and has been with me through thick and thin regardless of the way I am is Maya 💕💕💕(that's not her real name ofcourse)

About myself:
I'm an overthinker
I'm a scorpio
I play the ukulele 
I'm bi (let's keep my bi crush's name as Tessa)
I like to sing
I like kpop 
I also watch kdramas
Manipulative sometimes 
I'm a little lazy 
I bake when bored
I write songs 
I'm an emotional bitch
I'm on pintrest or Instagram most of the time
I love animals
I have a lot of insecurities 
im sometimes straight up honest
I sometimes lie wayyyyy too much 

Appearance vice:
Wavy shoulder length black hair
5'4
Hazle brown eyes
hourglass shaped body
Partially South Asian looking 
And I also wear glasses
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