Addictive Fear
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ADDICTIVE FEAR Alves Series #1
Nicole Zariah Alves
"Sisiguraduhin kong ako lang ang magiging laman n'yang puso mo, Zariah. Hindi kana magkakaroon ng iba pang pagpipilian, ako lang."
Mas mapait, mas kakaadikan ko. Parang ampalaya kpag mas mapakla mas exciting. Parang alak, mas malakas ang tama kapag mas matindi ang lasa. Mas masakit, mas tatatak sa utak ko at mas gugustuhin ko. Mas mahirap abutin, mas challenging at mas mabubuhay ang dugo ko. Ive been addicted to be wounded and to feel pain because its the only thing that makes me feel alive.
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