Eureka Esperanza is not the person she used to be. She has changed into so many different molds for different people. The quiet daughter who would laugh and play with her mother, the cold step sister who couldnt care less for her siblings, or exactly what the media wanted her to be. Except for them, around them she could be completely unapologetically herself. Until that was all taken, and another came along and melt her down to fit into their own 'perfect' mold. Still dealing with trauma she is forced back to a place that holds so many bitter sweet memories for her. A fluff place full of smiles and late nights at the dinner a block down the road. One of the only places she truly could call home, but being brought back for such a sad reason. When one of the only people whom she could truly open up to leaves her behind she is distraught. What she didnt expect, to see them. No call, no text, no letter, no nothing. She wont fall victim to another person abandoning her. That is her big promise. No one can hurt her the way they did. Though when she sees things a little bit more from their side she might just fall victim again. Not on purpose, just because, you cant always let go of something easy. That's because you have memories that hold warmth, its love.
⚠️TRIGER WARNING⚠️
⚠️⚠️This story will contain abuse, alchohol, substances, violence, strong language, sexual assault themes, bullying, self harm, suicidal thoughts, anxiety, depression, PTSD, blood and gore.⚠️⚠️
It's a mature book if any of this seems like a not so great idea for you to read pls do not. I dont want anyone to read this and get triggered. Pls look at the warning.
Nyctophilia (n.)
-love of darkness or night. finding relaxation or comfort in the darkness
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Life isn't always easy. Sure there's some ups, but there's also downs.
My life went downhill real fast the day I lost my voice. The day I stopped talking to any human being. The day that all of it changed the entire way around.
I honestly thought I'd stay that way forever... you know, quiet, introverted, sad, but mostly scared.
Until I met him. Until he came and changed everything for the best without even knowing it.
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Nyctophilia Heather Walker used to be a ray of sunshine. The kind of person who put a smile on your face with one single glance. Surely, her life was too perfect to be real. Everything got ruined that one night. Since, she hasn't pronounce a word or even communicated with someone who isn't family or best friend. Since... she hates the world. She despises it. Until he comes along. Until he opens a door for Nyctophilia. A door that leads to something she hadn't believed in for years. A door towards hope.
Aaron Christopher Black aka your typical underground fighter. Tall, muscular, extremely handsome, but mostly scary. His glare could kill someone easily. He could snap your bone in two without even trying. He is the guy your parents warned you about. Nonetheless, everyone has a reason to their actions, right? No one really knows why he's so cold and mysterious... until she comes in the decor. Ah, will the big bad guy be able to resist to sweet Nyctophilia or will he be whipped so easily no one would believe he really is terrifying?
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⚠️TW⚠️
This book can contain really sensitive subjects such as self-harm, rape, self-sabotage, eating disorder, depressed thoughts, strong languages and such.
I will not put a trigger warning at each chapter, so read at your own risk. I warned you, if you're still reading and it triggered you, it is not on my part anymore.