I didn't mean to become this

Look, if you have a dream that your standing infront of a mirror and your reflection tells you to do something DONT DO IT!

If the dream is haunting you, go ask the local wizard for a dreamless sleeping poison and a health potion, problem solved.

I mean, well okay, some good stuff has happened, sure, but this?
THIS?
How is "this" good?
This isn't my idea of good.
This is not how I wanted to spend an eternity.
...
But now that it happened, I'm going to use it to my ends and it is not my fault if you regret the ending.

But what happens next, that is a story for later, it's the future and hasn't been written yet, it has time to change...

What I am here to tell you is what led up to this point.

Pretty sure this is going to be a stupid idea, and I'm going to get in a lot of trouble for writing it out, but who freaking cares. I didn't want things to end up this way anyways!
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the idea for this story is a 4e campaign I was in but didn't get to finish because we were all in the Navy and someone went on deployment at the same time as someone getting stationed somewhere in a different state I think our DM was leaving too... I'm talking 2011~2013 timeframe... my memory is crap.

but I do remember how my character arc was suppose to end, and most of its beginning. While the class has changed cause 5e doesn't have invoker, I have tried to pick stuff that would fit her in spirit.

the other characters have changed because mainly I don't remember enough about the details and the only person in the old group I have contact info for still is not someone I want to talk to right now.

if someone correctly guesses what my character is upset about I will change the intro, I think its pretty obvious from the summery, but if you need more hints, they will come.

I do not have a time schedule, I do not very much planned out at all. I have a lot of dice and access to a bunch of offical wizards of the coast book.