i used to love him like spring
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MatureOngoing8m
Last published Wed, May 12, 2021
"It took me a million reasons to convince myself to let you go, and when you came back the feelings that I've felt in those months of moving on suddenly appeared like they didn't went away. Suddenly, I realized maybe I wasn't trying to move on, maybe I was trying to forget my feelings exist somewhere in the corner of my mind and let it all fade away. I didn't try to move on, I tried to hide those feelings in case you come back. Every day I try and in those days I hurt myself even more. Maybe I need to let go, I know I need to. but I dont know if I can, maybe I will but not right now. Maybe soon. Maybe tomorrow. Maybe in a few months."
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19 year old Kyle is a pessimist. A cold-hearted, anxiety-driven, outgoing pessimist. He craves for something he has been deprived of and that is happiness. He hated the way the world works and how it serves certain people while leaving the rest to fight their own battles, alone and fighting for them to feel that same feeling the favored are given. Until he met Ruel, a 23 year old with a body that is filled with tattoos he calls "marks". He is everything Kyle envies, he is free and he does whatever he wants and he doesn't let shit get in his way of happiness. Kyle despises him, until he doesn't.
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