Last Time | lams
- Reads 1,641
- Votes 37
- Parts 16
Complete Thu, Aug 5, 20213h 21m
TW : depression, suicidal thoughts
Alexander had, according to him, no more reason to live. He was tired, and his head kept telling him that he had no one, that if he disappeared, no one would care.
And that was true. Alexander was alone, terribly alone. He was waiting for someone. More than anyone on this Earth, he needed a person by his side, because that was the only thing that would have allowed him to stay alive. Alexander couldn't take it anymore. He couldn't find any meaning in his life, and to continue fighting had become useless. And he had no one.
Yeah, he just needed someone.
And it was there, just as everything was falling apart around him, that he met him.
John. The boy he was waiting for. The person he needed.
---------------------------------------------------------
Okay, this story is not amazing, but I hope you'll enjoy it!
All Rights Reserved
#111
laurensxhamilton
Join the largest storytelling communityGet personalized story recommendations, save your favourites to your library, and comment and vote to grow your community.
You may also like
wed.
They made a deal, right? Alexander Hamilton teased, belittled, picked on, and bullied John Laurens in grade school. John doesn't care, though, because he decided that all he wants is for Alex to marry him. And he'll do anything to make that happen. Even if they're not a perfect match. Trigger Warning: John struggles immensely with his mental health because I struggle immensely with my mental health. Viewer discretion is advised.Complete
Far Too Damaged- A Lams Fanfiction
Alexander Hamilton is selectively mute, depressed, and just altogether damaged. His soulmate, John Laurens, knows it too, from the overwhelming waves of sadness he feels occasionally to the aching pains in his forearms. John wishes that he could help him, but he knows nothing about his soulmate. However, the odds are in Alexander and John's favor when Alex enrolls in Kings College, where John is a student. John might find Alex, but will it be in time? Can he save him from James Reynolds? WARNINGS: There is rape, angst, depression, cursing, and lots of other stuff that is inappropriate for young reader. I can't stop you though. Basically how the soulmate thing works like: When you kiss your soulmate, a band in your skin forms on your left ring finger. You can change the band to look however you want. If your soulmate is feeling a strong emotion, your soulmate feels it too. If you get hurt, your soulmate feels a muffled version of that pain. Yes I used a Heathers quote as the title FIGHT ME (Don't actually I'm weak, there's a reason I act instead of playing sports) (Not that acting/dancing/singing isn't hard but ya). I really had no idea what I was doing when I started writing this so sorry if it's weird or things don't make sense. All characters belong to Lin-Manuel Miranda and all those people DON'T SUE ME Me looking back on this story: F*ck, this is so angsty and cringey, but I can't take it down because it has so many reads. *cries in author*Complete
Love Me (Alexander Hamilton And John Laurens Love Story)
This is about Alexander Hamilton and John Laurens falling in love. It talks a lot about getting abuse,doing suicide, and a bunch of other depressing things that I did not plan on soooooo. Enjoy!Complete![Roses Of Mist [Lams//Boyxboy] ✔️](https://img.wattpad.com/cover/111023805-256-k888893.jpg)
Roses Of Mist [Lams//Boyxboy] ✔️
John Laurens is a shy 15 year old, in the closet. His only wish of this school year, is to be more confident about himself. Make friends. Maybe even get a boyfriend. Alexander Hamilton, an 18 year old senior, popular, and has a girlfriend named Eliza. Little did anyone know, girls aren't his only preference. (I know that Laurens is the one that's 3 years older, but John sounds cute as a shy kid. I also know this is probably crappy, and ive changed some details, such as Lafayette being three years older than Laurens instead of three years younger, and ive made relations between characters that aren't real. But i love Hamilton and i ship Lams). Cover made by me. Art in the cover photo isn't mine. Credit to the artist. This is all pretty badly written so be warned. There's also a part two but it's on hiatus.Complete
Laurens, I Like You A Lot
*Updates EVERY Wednesday and Saturday* Meet John Laurens whose life was fine. Or at least, he thought it was. Then he met Alexander Hamilton, the man who works nonstop and doesn't know how to take a break. This is the story of their love. Okay so, yes it's a modern Lams fanfiction but I promise it won't be like the othersComplete
Come Back Home (Lams Celeb AU)
John Laurens is the ultimate celebrity. He's charming, he gives to charities, he's crazy talented, and on top of that, the whole world loves him. Well, the whole world except for his childhood best friend, of course. When John had left to become a superstar, he left Alexander Hamilton behind. They had lost contact after a couple years as John got sucked up into the world of being famous. So what happens when John, the singer devoted to his music, visits Alex, the scorned man who no longer enjoys his company, after ten years? ~.~ This story is inspired by Anthony Ramos's album, The Good and The Bad, and each title uses the song titles. (This book was written before the news of the breakup, and I was too far to turn back and change the story) I do NOT own the characters in this story, they all belong to history and Lin Manuel Miranda's musical, Hamilton. Cover Art creds @annanymous_ MATURE for strong language, and talk about sex (skips past actual sex scenes). WARNING: Most replies from me will be ominous, beware of the smiley face :) Unless otherwise specified, story will be told in John's POV.Complete
Watching Beyond the Grave (Ghost Laurens AU)
John Laurens was dead. Yep. He was gone. Or was he? He didn't know for sure. A slight cry was heard. A woman ran into the room. It was Eliza? John was confused. Something was off. He was dead, and he was alive... as a ghost. BIG OLD NOTE: This WILL NOT be edited again since I've fallen out if the fandom. However, I LOVE reading your comments on this story. Thanks a lot for the support, everyone <3 (On that note, I do apologise for any spelling mistakes, off sentences, ect ect. I wasn't the best at writing at the time.) Ha that's a bad description XD Pretty much John is dead and he finds himself in the Hamilton house. Alexander doesn't know he's there, but Phillip does. It'll be explained I guess. I don't own Hamilton or the Ghost Laurens AU. Minor Warning: Swearing, Gay (Lams moments from Laurens remembering--), sad moments Cover drawn by me btw (Phillip is cute--) (Update, November 5, 2018: a couple of years later and this thing is ranked. Thank you guys for tolerating my horrible writing and old cringey self.)Complete
You get me (Lams fanfiction)
Alex Hamilton has never been in the best mind state. He's been through sickness, a hurricane, and foster homes. All of his foster homes have abused him verbally and physically, especially because of his sexuality. Then, he is fostered with the Washingtons. John Laurens has always been the easiest target at school. His dad rarely comes home, once a month if he feels like it. John has fallen into a deep depression with self-harm. The only people keeping him alive are his friends, but they don't know how bad it is. When Lafayette introduces Alex and John, they immediately click. John trusted Alex enough to tell him about his depression. Alex slowly tells John everything about his past. Will they be each other's lifesavers? ***Mentioning of Sexuality, Sex, Rape, Abuse, Bullying, Suicide, Depression, Cursing, and Self-harm*** ****I don't own the art cover!!!!! It's someone else's creation!****Complete
They made a deal, right? Alexander Hamilton teased, belittled, picked on, and bullied John Laurens in grade school. John doesn't care, though, because he decided that all he wants is for Alex to marry him. And he'll do anything to make that happen. Even if they're not a perfect match. Trigger Warning: John struggles immensely with his mental health because I struggle immensely with my mental health. Viewer discretion is advised.
More detailsContent Guidelines