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Time 3h 21m

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TW : depression, suicidal thoughts

Alexander had, according to him, no more reason to live. He was tired, and his head kept telling him that he had no one, that if he disappeared, no one would care.
And that was true. Alexander was alone, terribly alone. He was waiting for someone. More than anyone on this Earth, he needed a person by his side, because that was the only thing that would have allowed him to stay alive. Alexander couldn't take it anymore. He couldn't find any meaning in his life, and to continue fighting had become useless. And he had no one.
Yeah, he just needed someone.
And it was there, just as everything was falling apart around him, that he met him.
John. The boy he was waiting for. The person he needed.

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Okay, this story is not amazing, but I hope you'll enjoy it!All Rights Reserved

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Homeless | ♡ [Lams] ♡ by ultimateship101

**I AM FULLY AWARE THIS IS BAD, ITS FROM 2 YEARS AGO AND ALTHOUGH I WRITE MUCH BETTER IM NOT GONNA FIX IT** Alexander Hamilton is a homeless immigrant with very little chance of surviving. John Laurens is a rich South Carolinian with a kind heart. What happens when their worlds collide? ______ "Jesus fucking Christ" I yelped, my voice dry and sick. The moment I opened my mouth I could feel my lips burst from them constantly being dry. "Shit!" Someone yelled rushing to my aid. I rubbed my nose as tears burned the back of my eyes. "Are you okay," I opened my eyes to see the most gorgeous man to ever exist. His bright, hazel green, full of life eyes met my standard, brown, dead one's. His eyes widened, "woah," he said. #7 in Lams Started: September 5, 2019 Completed: September 5, 2020 "Why the fuck are y'all still reading this" -Me (April 8, 2021)

Yeah We're Freaks, But That's Alright [Jamilton] Modern College AU by Coolingkid598

TRIGGER WARNING: Depression, thoughts of suicide, anxiety, and self harm. Alex has been in a state of depression for as long as he can remember. The only thing that kept him going was his friends' support. He thought nobody was going though anything similar to him. He was wrong... Idk who made the art on the cover but it's good, enjoy.

Come Back Home (Lams Celeb AU) by xMusical_Nerdx

John Laurens is the ultimate celebrity. He's charming, he gives to charities, he's crazy talented, and on top of that, the whole world loves him. Well, the whole world except for his childhood best friend, of course. When John had left to become a superstar, he left Alexander Hamilton behind. They had lost contact after a couple years as John got sucked up into the world of being famous. So what happens when John, the singer devoted to his music, visits Alex, the scorned man who no longer enjoys his company, after ten years? ~.~ This story is inspired by Anthony Ramos's album, The Good and The Bad, and each title uses the song titles. (This book was written before the news of the breakup, and I was too far to turn back and change the story) I do NOT own the characters in this story, they all belong to history and Lin Manuel Miranda's musical, Hamilton. Cover Art creds @annanymous_ MATURE for strong language, and talk about sex (skips past actual sex scenes). WARNING: Most replies from me will be ominous, beware of the smiley face :) Unless otherwise specified, story will be told in John's POV.

Bad Things Always Follow// lams by achilleswithaquill

~TWs: self harm, depression, ptsd, panic attacks, bullying, descriptions of blood, homophobia Alex had a very bad childhood. abandonment, death, and a huge hurricane. on top of that, he was bullied for all of high school. when he moves to new York, he makes friends, discovers new things, develops a crush on one of his roommates, and finds out his high school bullies go to the same college as him, and are in most of his classes. every time something good happens, it seems as if something bad follows. this proves some real problems for him like the time he- well why don't you read this book and find out for yourself?

DO NOT THROW AWAY YOUR SHOT||lams oneshots by fangirl_who_writes

*this is currently being edited* I am horrible at descriptions so I'm just going to put an insert from it for now: Alexander Hamilton had never experienced snow. Never. Growing up in the Caribbean he'd never had the chance. Never until he'd moves to New York. Sure, he dreamed about seeing snow. But he never imagined that it was so cold. Yeah, it was pretty and all, but it was way too cold. The first year was the worst, but each year made Alexander dislike snow more and more. John was happy, though. Growing up in New York, John was used to the snow. Alexander on the other hand, he wasn't used to snow at all, as he grew up in the Caribbean. "Hey, Lex," John said, walking into his and Alexander's apartment. Alex looked up from his huddle of blankets on their couch. "No," he muttered. "What was that?" John asked, cheerfully. "No," Alex muttered again. "What?" "No. I'm not going outside." Alexander glared at John. "At least not until Spring."

Soulmates Are Harder Than I Thought • Lams by BoredSoLetsWrite

Sometimes the universe doesn't think things through well, sometimes decides to mess with someone's life and not in a good way. Sadly, for John Laurens, that was almost all of the days, but what can you do when you cant control the universe? You have to suck it up, because the life you were dealt with isn't easy. ~~ Warnings: Extreme Angst, mild foul language

Mostly Angst Lams One-Shots by Whattfisausername

Note: All my future Lams fics will be on my AO3 account (same name as this one). A collection of sad stories about Alexander Hamilton and John Laurens. I may write some one shots that aren't so depressing in the future, but for now it's just angst. *Cover art is by wubdoe on Tumblr

Broken Lams Modern AU {High School} {Soulmates} {Mature} {Completed} by MamaTurtle4427

Alexander Hamilton is broken. He's the new kid with a tragic past and a strange look at a school where everyone knows everyone, and he's the latest in a long line of targets for... well, everyone. He wants to hate people so much that he doesn't want to meet his soulmate. Ever. John Laurens is broken. But no one knows it. On the outside he looks fine: just your average hippie, always smiling, always toting around a ukulele that he plays in the halls for anyone who frowns. But what they don't know is worse than anything they've ever experienced. In a world where everyone has soulmates, what happens when two very different boys connect in a way that no one would expect? Characters belong to Lin-Manuel Miranda/Hamilton/Uh... Their historical selves??? Cover art by BeckyShecky ⚠️ Warning: Mature language, derogatory language, abuse, rape, self-harm, suicide, murder, death ⚠️

Watching Beyond the Grave (Ghost Laurens AU) by universebust

John Laurens was dead. Yep. He was gone. Or was he? He didn't know for sure. A slight cry was heard. A woman ran into the room. It was Eliza? John was confused. Something was off. He was dead, and he was alive... as a ghost. BIG OLD NOTE: This WILL NOT be edited again since I've fallen out if the fandom. However, I LOVE reading your comments on this story. Thanks a lot for the support, everyone <3 (On that note, I do apologise for any spelling mistakes, off sentences, ect ect. I wasn't the best at writing at the time.) Ha that's a bad description XD Pretty much John is dead and he finds himself in the Hamilton house. Alexander doesn't know he's there, but Phillip does. It'll be explained I guess. I don't own Hamilton or the Ghost Laurens AU. Minor Warning: Swearing, Gay (Lams moments from Laurens remembering--), sad moments Cover drawn by me btw (Phillip is cute--) (Update, November 5, 2018: a couple of years later and this thing is ranked. Thank you guys for tolerating my horrible writing and old cringey self.)

Mental - Lams (DISCONTINUED) by sister_cheezit

Alexander had had a childhood of tragic events, one right after another, which lead to him eventually developing sociopathic tendencies, as well as a few other mental illnesses. He had obsessive-compulsive disorder, antisocial personality disorder, and paranoid personality disorder. All of his previous therapists gave up on him before they even gave him a real chance. But then, one day, a new therapist stepped into the room. He had big brown eyes and freckled cheeks. But the thing that truly made him different was that he smiled. {Trigger Warning} • Angst • Mental Disorders • Mentions of Suicide and Self-Harm

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