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Deepest Regret

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Reads 38,964
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Parts 28
Time 2h 6m

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A person can only handle so much pain. I've been through a lot in my 17 years on this shithole we call Earth. But yet I'm still here. Yes by choice. Because A part of me always wanted to prove people wrong. My life may be one of the worst yes. But I wouldn't want to trade with anyone else because not everyone can go through so much and still be here. However a bigger part of me still wants to just end it. Because what if everyone was right? That I'll be stuck like this forever. Broken. But everyday I feel more confident about being able to prove everyone wrong. Ever since I met him...
-Camila Martinez 

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