Deflated - Mindless scribbles

Disassociation. Blackout. Breakdown. I'm not really sure which term is most appropriate to describe how I feel in those moments. An episode of nothingness; complete numbness. It's like everything bottles up and all of a sudden it's just too much to handle. So I don't. I make the subconscious choice to completely shut down. Sometimes for a few minutes, sometimes hours, sometimes longer. But in those moments, when my body feels so weak it is floating and all noise around me seems to echo, mostly inaudibly.. inside my head there is chaos. Complete and utter reckless disorder. This piece was mindlessly yet ferociously scribbled down during one of these dark periods and later typed up for personal reference. However, if you can relate then I hope this brings you some comfort in knowing that you are NOT alone. Mental Health Matters.