This so called Villainess wants to rest

my name is Himari Fuji, a top student at school, a class president who always have problems, of course i solved them all, but i'm tired, the next day i died

My second life ended pretty quickly with out me knowing, i was on the execution ground then i suddenly remembered my past life then died

When darkness was finally filled with sunlight i closed my eyes once again, The third life, i realized i was in the otome game that i played in my first life, i was sad yeah so i decided that i will act as a villainness and get executed so i can go back to my world

but here my fourth life i was struck by reality that i cant go back, so i thought " at least lets try to survive! " so i became good friends with the female lead, and got to see their love bloom, but i died saving the female lead from assassins sent by the side villainess

And this is now my fifth life and honestly its worse than my other life's
I became a baby and i'm struggling to even stand and talk! isnt this just bullshit?! wow what a shitty life i have!