My Mind
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Ongoing20m
Last published Wed, Jan 31, 2018
A collection of a teenage girls lessons she has learned, things she appreciates, things she has gone through and much more. If you read, enjoy(:
Here is a snip of the first chapter, "Pain"
"Everyone has their own way to deal with pain.
Although some of the ways of which people deal with pain can be very harmful and not highly suggested. Some self harm. Some bully others. Some join groups of 'friends' that aren't good. Some get into fights. Some punch or throw things. Some think that they are alone, going through what they are, alone; with no one there to comfort them, to hold their hand and guide them through the darkness that they are going through."
*Please keep in mind this book is going through multiple revisions, as I did start this one when I was 15. So I apologize for any typos, misspellings and incorrect grammar. Thank You.*
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