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Hold On (I Still Need You)

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Yeah, I woke up and chose pain.

Chuuya Nakahara wasn't what he seemed. Manipulating gravity hurt, and corruption slowly tore apart. He drowned himself in anything that would dull his mind, even for a few moments.

Osamu Dazai didn't know if living was worth it some days. He was ready to die, he knew that when it came he would go and not have wished for more time.

They were alone.

Or so they thought.

(This really isn't canon compliant. It kind of is, but has very little to do with the actual plot of BSD and other characters. This is my first Soukoku story, and is going to be rather short.)

(THERE WILL BE TALK OF SUICIDE AND ATTEMPTS ALONG WITH DEPRESSION, ADDICTION, AND PTSD.)

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Knife to the Back by Mingle_yippy

"I could kill you right here, right now." Chuuya said softly, with his knife down he hovered over Dazai. The taller man stayed silent as his eyes roamed Chuuya's face. "I could slit your throat open and make you regret what you've done to me." Chuuya pushed the knife to his throat, a little more pressure and he saw blood. Red soon soaked through the bandages, a small cut, a glimpse of dark liquid. ◇♤◇ Dazai and Chuuya were a pair, strong, argumentative, and forced. Ever since they were Fifteen, they were a pair. Until Dazai left and changed everything. In his wake he left a trail of fire and confusion, and all Chuuya could do was burn. A rekindled relationship that could never last. ⚠️ Warning: Major Charter Death, Smut, Harsh Laungue Notice!!! No Charters belong to me, All belong to Kafka Asagiri and Harukawa Sango!!! Coverage belongs to Kusaobnst on Twitter! Any other art will be credited accordingly.

Inevitable Destruction by Sanna_is_alone

Dazai angst I felt like writing ACTUAL WRITING WILL BE POSTED BY APRIL 30TH !PLEASE MIND THE TW'S THIS IS INCREDIBLY HEAVY! Child endangerment Child abuse Hypothermia Starvation/Descriptions of intense hunger Suicidal thoughts/Ideation Implications of non consensual medical drug usage Self harm Blood Gun/Blades Thoughts/Urges to hurt others (?) Dehumanization Depression Self neglect Suicide/Attempt (VERY descriptive) Panic attack descriptions Slight religious imagery (?) Descriptions of gore/injury Brief mention of torture Law breaking/reckless driving (?) Emotional suppression (?) Drastic mood swings/changes Mentioned character death Playlist on first part and taking suggestions

Tᴏ Kɪʟʟ A Mᴏᴄᴋɪɴɢʙɪʀᴅ-ᵈᵃᶻᵃⁱ ᵒˢᵃᵐᵘ by k-elysium

{𝕮𝖔𝖒𝖕𝖑𝖊𝖙𝖊𝖉} "Double Suicide is my way of showing how much you mean to me... How much I can trust you" "I believe you and I have quite the history Y/n but never in my life did I believe that we would cross paths this way" A 22 year old man stood on the edge of a cliff waiting for his partner to appear for the unfortunate event of double suicide. He kept gazing into the unknown and imagined every living memory he had with his colleagues. The man, Dazai Osamu, always believed in a cheery and double suicide with a fair young lady. They both had quite the extraordinary love story between them but will they be able to overcome the obstacles thrown at them through out their journey together? But ,of course, we need the details between their relationship. What actually happened between them? Let's have a look shall we... •The characters of this story does not belong to me. I only own the plot. • There may be graphic scenes and profanities. •This is a xfemale readers fanfiction because I really don't know how to write with they/them pronouns cause I make too many mistakes. •There will be spoilers in this story. •Updates will not be regular but I try to write as much as I can. •Please leave votes and comments. They are always welcomed. ♤cover art not by me♤

Bellflowers || Fyozai by DazaiMancer

Started: 17.03.2023 Finished: 30.08.2023 Osamu Dazai is a young and successful psychiatrist who was always kind and a gentleman until a certain event which caused him to lose the will of live and anything at all. He helped numerous serious cases to heal and brought them back to the society. He had gained most of his co-workers' trust. He changed a lot though after losing the person he had been together for 15 years. He fell into the depths of the darkness and despair. What happens if he meets a mysterious patient who has his own scars?

Dazai Osamu x Reader: The beauty of life by _Ms_Ackerman_

Y/n L/n, a lonely, by choice, girl. Dazai Osamu, a suicidal but intelligent detective. Both of them were Port Mafia members but the impact that this left to them, is different. Y/n wants to live and Dazai wants to die. What will happen between them? What will happen in the end? Who will live and who will die?... Em, I just wanted to let you know that English is not my first language so please don't critise if there are any grammatical mistakes. I only own the plot of the story!!! I don't own any of the characters besides Y/n!!! I also don't own any of the art!!! BSD and the characters belongs to Kafka Asagiri!!! (Some parts are also Asagiri-san's cause they are based on the actual manga!) Warnings ⚠️: Suicidal thoughts!!! Violence!!! Blood!!! COMPLETED STORY

Their untold secrets by nohealanii0

We write letters to ourselves as a way of comfort and closure. They both have many untold secrets... the feelings, they wish they could convey to each other, and the secrets they wish they could keep hidden. Will it come to the light or stay in the dark? A book about Dazai's day, life, and innermost thoughts. Asking himself the unsaid questions, the questions he doesn't know how to answer himself. The emotions he wishes to feel, but doubts he ever could. Chuuya? How did the brunettes departure affect him? How did he learn to cope? And who did he blame? {There will be journal entries in this book. Both dazai and Chuuya's feelings and perspectives out on paper} (this story contains angst, and the normal dazai stuff like talks about suicide, attempts, substance abuse, boyxboy, Soukoku, self harm. There will have several journal entries, but also have an actual story to go along with it.)

Sorrow Witnessed By The Moon by Chibi-Tsun2021

Chuuya was suffering from pain. He was hurt badly and he want to ended it by dying. Dazai learn and came to save Chuuya. Both ended up confessing their hidden feeling after all the years of hiding in fear of rejection. [Reminder, there's some chapter that really is a bit detailed. Please be cautious. This a angst, romance and happy ending type of story. I don't really much had a knowledge on writing angst and this is my first one writing that includes mostly angst. So be prepared.] Ps : Don't Copy To Another Site without my permission

[ ✓ ] 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐈𝐒 𝐁𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐃 | 𝐧𝐚𝐤𝐚𝐫𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚 𝐜𝐡𝐮𝐮𝐲𝐚 by CharminglySplendid

School AU of Chuuya x Reader and a slight!Dazai x Reader~ (it might be mostly Dazai at first) First Story, yay! (aside from the one shot I've written) I can't promise it'll go well, but it's worth a try, right?? I'll do my best to make this story end successfully!! Please enjoy :D -CharminglySplendid »»-------------¤-------------«« Working as a waitress at a family restaurant as your part time job over the summer, a new boy walked into your job- more like life. The boss immediately partnered you with the new boy, Nakahara Chuuya. And it was the worst idea ever. You hated this guy, and you knew that he hated you too. You two would constantly argue over everything, playing the blame game like two year olds. And of course, you were stuck in the same class with him at your new high school as a third year. Teachers would always put you into pairs in every single project, no matter what. Until you met a boy named Dazai Osamu. It was like love at first sight, you were head over heels for him. Unfortunately, he was an exceptionally well gifted student so he is in an advanced class. Once you realized that Chuuya was actually good friends with Dazai, you two made a promise: that Chuuya helps your relationship with Dazai, hopefully making it successful while Chuuya- well he really had no promises, it was more like a command from you. With Chuuya helping your relationship with Dazai, the two of you formed a very strong bond along the way and maybe meeting Chuuya wasn't so bad as you thought it would be... »»-------------¤-------------«« Disclaimer/warning: There will be a few OCs in this story and a disclaimer that I don't own any of the characters of BSD!! ♡Finished at 8/28/16♡

Parted Entanglement { ① } by heathereo

''You used yourself as bait .'' Dazai couldn't see the problem here. What's the shorty upset about ? ''You could've died YOU IDIOT !'' Chuuya snapped as if he could read the question that was on the brunet's mind seconds ago. The next morning, Dazai was going to intrude Chuuya's room and aggressively pull him out of his slumber. But his room was empty. He wasn't in Mori's office, he wasn't answering his phone, he wasn't lying drunk anywhere near the bar. Where was he ? What happened ? Was he in danger ? ✨ 16 year-old Soukoku ✨ Romance ⚠️ Torture ⚠️ Blood ⚠️ Self harm 🗞️ No. 1 in #dachuu 🗞️ No. 1 in #dazaixchuuya 🗞️ No. 2 in #nakaharachuuya 🗞️ No. 2 in #chuuya 🗞️ No. 4 in #dazai 🗞️ No. 12 in #soukoku 🗞️ No. 25 in #doubleblack 🗞️ No. 69 in #dazaiosamu 🎨 Cover Art Credit : pooooochi0429 (Twitter) 🎨 Content Art Credit : *unknown*

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Knife to the Back cover

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T��ᴏ Kɪʟʟ A Mᴏᴄᴋɪɴɢʙɪʀᴅ-ᵈᵃᶻᵃⁱ ᵒˢᵃᵐᵘ cover

Bellflowers || Fyozai cover

Dazai Osamu x Reader: The beauty of life cover

Their untold secrets cover

Sorrow Witnessed By The Moon cover

[ ✓ ] 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐈𝐒 𝐁𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐃 | 𝐧𝐚𝐤𝐚𝐫𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚 𝐜𝐡𝐮𝐮𝐲𝐚 cover

Parted Entanglement { ① } cover

Knife to the Back

"I could kill you right here, right now." Chuuya said softly, with his knife down he hovered over Dazai. The taller man stayed silent as his eyes roamed Chuuya's face. "I could slit your throat open and make you regret what you've done to me." Chuuya pushed the knife to his throat, a little more pressure and he saw blood. Red soon soaked through the bandages, a small cut, a glimpse of dark liquid. ◇♤◇ Dazai and Chuuya were a pair, strong, argumentative, and forced. Ever since they were Fifteen, they were a pair. Until Dazai left and changed everything. In his wake he left a trail of fire and confusion, and all Chuuya could do was burn. A rekindled relationship that could never last. ⚠️ Warning: Major Charter Death, Smut, Harsh Laungue Notice!!! No Charters belong to me, All belong to Kafka Asagiri and Harukawa Sango!!! Coverage belongs to Kusaobnst on Twitter! Any other art will be credited accordingly.