my notes about him..

I am still confused on why things had to end this way.. we could have fixed it i don't even know your true feelings still.. and I wished u noticed how much effort I put in for "us" even tho we didn't get that far Iloveyou. I know I never really told u but you were my last hope Ik you gotta girl now so ima just say congrats she's so lucky to have you. I hope she makes you happier then I could maybe one day it could be me again.. you don't even know how much I hate myself for losing you you were my damn light to my darkness.. I loved you to death I really mean it/: Look Ik u probably don't care about what I say but I just wanna let yk that I still love you and I hate myself for that because u put me in so much Pain But no matter what I do I will always love you I miss u and I wish that we could go back to when u did feel the same way about me but.. I'm starting to realize you never felt the same way I did for u, ig u were using me but tbh id rather be used and still be able to talk to u But now you moved on from me u left me broken and in so much pain I fucking hate you and I wish I never met you but I also wish..That u came back, and I'm sorry for not being enough for u stay, and tbh I was just a other boy on your phone but to me u where so much more I lost everything because of you but you never cared about my Danm feelings but that's ok I will always still be there for u if u need me I just wanted to say one last thing I love you and always will have a place for you in my heart even tho you broke me like no one ever could/: