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"I don't remember much, But he did it when i couldn't do anything, i was helpless, i was only 3 years Old.". Flashback hits me like a hard stone came flying against my face. 

I see his dark hair I see his blue eyes look at me and show no regret and no apology ever came out of the awful mouth.

I blink myself back to the present and try to give him an answer.

"I do not remember much," I repeated.

"I remember, uhmm his touches" I took a deep breath before continuing "yeah his touches I remember as it was yesterday" it came out lower than I expected but he had heard it his face pressure said it all.

"His uhm .. touches." I started to gasp for Air when I felt the oxygen trying to escape from me. "His touches have .. never misplaced me, every time someone touches me..." "I only see his eyes looking at me and his big hand grabbing me."

I blinked countless times to hold back my tears. "He has ruined my love life, what he did is never something I can forget. No one can ever touch me that way without his face appearing as a picture in my memories. "

"Who? You still haven't told who." He said angrily very angrily.

"I can't say" came out as an whisper. 

No matter how much I wanted I can't.All Rights Reserved

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Decadent by DystopianMilieu

My hand slaps against my mouth as I try to shut myself up. Don't make too much noise...or he'll hear you. A vehicle's door opens then slams shut. I don't hear footsteps...but as the minutes go by I begin to hear them; the footsteps get louder and louder and louder, matching the sound of my thundering heart. That's when I see his shadow cast over the ditch...over the place where I tried to hide. "Well," he says with a smile in his voice. "I wonder where he could've gone...the footprints stop here...so I wonder if he just...disappeared?" My body begins to tremble. I can feel it now. The pain. I can feel the pain already. He jumps down into the ditch...he stands directly in front of me, with his back facing me. My hand presses harder against my mouth as I try to suppress my whimper, but it's way too late now. But his body tenses up when he hears it. He laughs bitterly as he turns around slowly, and his eyes cut through my camouflage easily. "There you are."

The Trouble with Trust [COMPLETED] by AlleyandMisha

I'm about to tell you a story about a girl. A normal girl. A girl that had no cares in the world, until her trust for it was stripped away. When you read her story, you'll find yourself trusting her, loving her, rooting for her. But you see, not everyone gets to trust the world. Not everyone has a happy ending. --- Halfway through the kiss however, his attitude changed; instead of being a loving embrace, it became a fierce trap. His grip on her waist tightened, trapped her where she was instead of simply holding her where he wanted her. The hand in her hair grabbed a section of it, enforcing his demand for her not to go anywhere. Before she knew what was happening, he left go of her hair, and pushed her to the ground. She gasped, suddenly able to breathe. He stood up and walked over to her. He placed a soft hand on her cheek, just like he used to when he was telling her how special she was to him. None of the emotion was there this time however, all she could feel radiating from his was rage. "You shouldn't have run off, babe," he said bitterly. "I was about to show you how much I loved you. Instead, I now have to show you what happens when you anger me." --- The men regarded her, before she was shoved to the ground and one produced a whip. There, laying broken on the floor, as the other girls watched, she was whipped. Slowly, she felt her skin breaking in time with her heart and her will.

Kill Me Gangleader by Flirtyflower01

Someone walks into the room but I cannot see its face. It looks like a man and by the look of his posture, he seems very important. "Why were you in my territory?" His voice is strangely calm however I think its the calm before the storm. "I didn't know it was your territory! For gods sake how many times do I have to tell you people? Just let me go and I promise I won't say anything to anyone. Not like I have anyone to tell." The last part I said in a whisper. He didn't need to know the situation I was in. I hear the cock of a gun making me raise my head. The all too familiar sound ringing in my ears. "I don't believe you bitch, so you better tell me the truth or your brains are gonna end up on the wall." Ah there's the storm. "A gun doesn't scare me arsehole, I've had way worse things than that!" He steps forward into the light so I can see his features. He is extremely good looking but right now is not the right time to admire his beauty. I stare straight into his pitch black eyes, daring him to try harder than this. He smirks and leans forward searching my eyes. Before I can even register what's happening, he punches me in the face. *** Mature Content

Unmask by mona_leighsah

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Broken by canadianpurplesmurf

*****THIS STORY WILL BE COMING DOWN! PUBLISHING IT ON AMAZON KINDLE!****** "What really happened to you?" He asked touching my swollen cheek. I backed away . "I told you what happened. I am a klutz." I argued "I can tell when you are lying. Any other time I would have given you space but you come back with your face beat up? And you will not tell us what happened? I want to know. This is involving your health and I need to know." He said seriously "There is nothing to say." I said turning to walk away. He gently grabbed my arm stopping me. I winced involuntarily. I think he saw me. "Who did this to you?" He asked pleading. I looked at him for a few moments. "No one." I lied again "You're lying" He observed "God! You are so......so.....so damn frustrating! You do not know when to back off! Why can't you just leave me alone!" I fumed "Because it is you we are talking about" he said stepping closer "What does that have to do with anything?!" I questioned backing up as he stepped closer "Because I don't want you hurt" he said getting even closer. I backed up till I couldn't any more "Why? I am not important. I don't mean anything. The only reason I am even stayed alive this long is because of Aaron!" I spat. "Don't you ever say that! You are not nothing! You are important!" He growled in anger "Yeah right! Like you would know!" i retorted. We glared at each other for a few second then Marc grabbed my face in his hand and passionately kissed me. I was taken by surprise. We kissed for a few minutes until I pulled away and turned my head. "Forget this happened" I whispered as I walked past him back to the others and he quickly followed.

Altered by LuellaOpal

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Apocalypse: The Healer's Story by Devilbesideyou1320

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Cold Water by adaline_meadows

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My hand slaps against my mouth as I try to shut myself up. Don't make too much noise...or he'll hear you. A vehicle's door opens then slams shut. I don't hear footsteps...but as the minutes go by I begin to hear them; the footsteps get louder and louder and louder, matching the sound of my thundering heart. That's when I see his shadow cast over the ditch...over the place where I tried to hide. "Well," he says with a smile in his voice. "I wonder where he could've gone...the footprints stop here...so I wonder if he just...disappeared?" My body begins to tremble. I can feel it now. The pain. I can feel the pain already. He jumps down into the ditch...he stands directly in front of me, with his back facing me. My hand presses harder against my mouth as I try to suppress my whimper, but it's way too late now. But his body tenses up when he hears it. He laughs bitterly as he turns around slowly, and his eyes cut through my camouflage easily. "There you are."