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Before I Blackout

Amber_Officialx

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Parts 82
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Amber_Officialx

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My best work is done when I'm on the edge of blacking out, when you finally stop trying to pretend you have a grip on what runs though your mind, you should try writing with your eyes half closed and your mind wide open. 

This may be an on going project I may never finish or may decide to move certain works to different places depending on how this goes. I always have new ideas popping up here and there, I wanted a place I could put them all for others to read and maybe gain new perspective, learn from the things I write about or simply just enjoy mindless reading even if it's just jumbled emotional words. Some of these I wrote in high school...I'm sure you could tell...some of these could be as recent as yesterday. New ones will be thrown into the mix could be everyday day or every once in awhile, some nights I get decent sleep, but on the ones I can't...you might get lucky 😉All Rights Reserved

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This book is for you, who wants to read about what life can be like, most of the times. This book has reminders, poetry, tips and tricks, quotes, texts about meaning with life, happy moment and even sad moments. A little bit of everything life can throw at you. I have no filter to this book. Which means it's raw and genuine, and that is the goal. (You don't necessarily have to read from start to finish) If you for an example have a bad day, I have a chapter for you about seeing it thru a different perspective than what people normally tell you. Or if you feel like you want to know what happiness is or feels like, I have different definition of that in different chapters for you my dear! (And many more chapters, about everything you could think of) And maybe you know all of this already, and it glads me to hear. But give it a chance and maybe you'll find new ways to Incorporate it in your daily life. Or let it just be reminders for yourself. What ever works for you, love! - A.M🍷

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//ғʟᴏᴡᴇʀs ᴏғ ᴍʏ ғᴇᴇʟɪɴɢs: ᴘᴏᴇᴛʀʏ ʙᴏᴏᴋ// ᴛʜɪs ʙᴏᴏᴋ ɪs ᴀ ᴄᴏʟʟᴇᴄᴛɪᴏɴ ᴏғ sʜᴏʀᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ᴅᴇᴇᴘ ᴘᴏᴇᴍs/Thoughts/Quotes ᴡʜɪᴄʜ ᴄᴏɴᴠᴇʏ ᴍʏ/ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ's ғᴇᴇʟɪɴɢs ᴀɴᴅ ʟɪғᴇ sɪᴛᴜᴀᴛɪᴏɴs/ᴇᴠᴇɴᴛs. sᴏᴍᴇ ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀs ᴍɪɢʜᴛ ʀᴇʟᴀᴛᴇ ᴛᴏ ɪᴛ. (I recommend you to read from the end so that you don't have to see ads. It has random thoughts and feelings so no need to read from first only. You may read from the latest part) Fʟᴏᴡᴇʀs ᴀʀᴇ ʙʟᴏᴏᴍɪɴG ᴀs ᴛʜᴇ sᴜɴ ɪs sʜɪɴɪɴɢ ᴍʏ ғᴇᴇʟɪɴɢs ʙʟᴏᴏM ᴡʜᴇɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ɪᴛ ɪs ʀᴀɪɴɪɴ ᴘᴇᴛᴀʟs ᴏғ ᴍʏ ʟɪғᴇ-ғʟᴏᴡᴇR ᴅᴀɴᴄᴇ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴏᴠᴇ-sʜᴏᴡᴇʀ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴇᴀᴜᴛʏ ᴏғ ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴇ ғʟᴏᴡᴇʀs, ᴇᴍᴘᴏᴡᴇʀS ᴘᴜʙʟɪsʜᴇᴅ sɪɴᴄᴇ : 7 ᴊᴜʟʏ 2020 sᴛᴀᴛᴜs: Completed ʜᴏᴘᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀʟʟ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴇɴᴊᴏʏ ɪᴛ! ᴛʜᴀɴᴋɪɴɢ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀʟʟ ᴡɪᴛʜ ❤ ʀʏᴀɴ .................. Top rankings: #3 in #poetry #4 in #deepthinking #2 in #deeppoetry #3 in #wordsofwisdom #2 in #darkpoetry #1 in #happypoems #1 in #lifequotes #10 in #deepthoughts #4 in #poesia #3 in #shortpoems #9 in #poembook #9 in #poetrycollection