Turn of tides

This poem was written as a support for the #BraveTogether Maybelline Mental Health Awareness Month donation challenge. The initial requirement asked for a maximum of 500 words but my full poem was close to 800. I decided to break it in two parts, the submitted poem and its continuation below. I've copied and paste the first part and then as I prepared to transfer the second one, I have accidentally deleted that part. I've tried to recover it by several means and none have worked. I am heartbroken as I have worked so hard and I've put so many of my emotions and thoughts in it. As of now, I have decided to upload the first part as it was intended and mark it as ongoing not as completed. Perhaps the words will come to me again. For now, this failure, this mistake, is hitting me hard and all the self deprecation is shooting its cannons at me. Quite fitting for the Mental Health Awareness Month it's it? The irony.