After the Great Wars have stripped society as we know it, the Before marks the time from birth to 18 years old where citizens are educated, trained, and equipped to take their specific place in the new Society. This job is given to them by the Government at the Distribution ceremony, chosen specifically to fit their skills and abilities. Everyone seems hopeful for this future, eager to fit into their place in the Utopian-like communities where conflict has been eradicated and everyone has equal opportunities, or so it seems. However, Alexis knows she is different, even before she can put a finger on why. While others sleep soundly, she suffers from night terrors that keep her awake most of the night. She excels above the other students and constantly questions everything around her. As soon as her behavior starts to turn heads, Easton, an Official for the Government who secretly possesses the same gifts as she does, takes her under his wing and starts to teach her about the realities of the seemingly perfect world around her: the good, the bad, and the ugly.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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