An Aromantics Point of View

Journal Entry : December 15th. Time: 20:58

I am so fucking sorry.

Although I'll never tell you that to your face, I will continue to live in agony and disgust with myself to prevent further damage. I know I love you, well at least I think I do. I wasn't sure if you were the one. I didn't feel those sparks, I didn't feel giddy inside when you called me or when you texted me. Well, at first I did, oh lord I could've sworn that you would've been my wife, and then out of nowhere all the feelings I had for you left and were replaced by nothing.

I was numb, I didn't like you, I didn't love you, I didn't hate you, I didn't loathe you, I didn't feel anything towards you but annoyance, annoyance for you awakening these stupid ass fucking feelings and annoyance for them leaving out of nowhere and replacing the emptiness inside of me with pain and confusion once again.