the fallen girl

Hi I am Amanda Dillard. And I have no emotions. Yeah you heard right. I dont cry I don't feel anger or love or even pity. I am a heartless bitch.

I don't know why either. I just woke up one morning,the day after my first boyfriend broke up with me , and I stopped feeling anything. The night before I cried so much I made myself sick.

Literally. I threw up all over my dad and mom who were trying to comfort me. My first heartbreak, and I got sick all . Over. my. parents. Then after that I quit feeling anything.

My parents even took me to see a shrink cause I felt nothing.I had this far away look every time I drug myself out of bed. And the nightmares. Oh god, the nightmares.they used to scare me so bad that it's hard to feel scared anymore. Let me tell you about the dreams. I'm running as fast as I can through a field, which is covered in rose thorns, a and I'm panting so hard my lungs feel like I swallowed hot lava. I'm running from a man in a cloak with a scythe like object, and the