Dan Howell was a lonely insecure man of 23. Being too skinny, too pale, and what most would call 'emo' he had no friends, and while he wasn't particularly depressed, he wasn't happy. With a secret bigger than himself, he needed a source of strength. He needed something... more. Phil Lester can come across as funny, cute, and adorable. At 27, he is the youngest CEO in London, and it is imperative that he exercise control in all aspects of his life. Constantly fighting against older men in the entertainment industry, he often feels out of control. He has a secret, and he can never slip. When the two have a chance encounter, a world of strength, triumph, hardships, and uncontrolled lust spin wildly out of control. Will both make it out whole? *No trigger warnings* this is SMUTTY like no other