Broken promise (Kaneki x Depressed! Reader)

"Please don't do this to yourself it hurts to see you like this-" "But I deserve this pain"
_Faker, Asswhole, Just give up and die, Your heartless!?, Take a dive of the roof dumbass, Loser, You deserve all the bad things that come to you_
Those are the things you get called on a daily basis. You agree with them, after all the mistake you made caused this. They both left you. You got beaten every day because of it. Your father sees you as a mistake and kicked you out of the place you used to call home. But what about kaneki and hide? They left because of what you did. And they never came back until it was too late.... or was it? (I got this idea from a book I read and this will contain triggers read at your own mental health please)