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With Death Etched In My Heart

xXChemicalKitty378Xx

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xXChemicalKitty378Xx

abuse alone dead death degradation depressed depression deprivation emo good hate love misery scared schizophrenia self-hate suicidal teen teenfic teenfiction

I'm that guy you see, alone. The one you call Emo, a fag. To everyone, I'm just that waste of space. No one knows me. I paste this act onto myself everyday, but  its all fake.....
Asher, a seventeen year old boy, with the worst case of depression and schizophrenia. It starts with a flyer, and escalates. He struggles with bullying, on and offline. But, a turn of events occurs. Things worsen, and Asher finds himself struggling to  hold onto life. Alone, he fights through his life..... Can he make it?All Rights Reserved

abuse alone dead death degradation depressed depression deprivation emo good hate love misery scared schizophrenia self-hate suicidal teen teenfic teenfiction

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Echoes of A Summer Love [MxM] by Einura

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