It's important to face your fears. No matter how much it might scare you to do so as long as you do it at your own pace.
(p.s. I wrote what I could. 500 words isn't enough for me but at least I tried)
You have a right to feel the way you do. You have a right to keep things private or to share and speak about these experiences to others. No matter what you choose, it is your decision to make. However, do not let your fear dismiss the truth. Do not believe the lies you constantly tell yourself to ignore the pain you are feeling. Do not let the sum of someone else's trauma silence you.