insecured/ unknown feelings

In 2021 I felt that something changed. I had feelings which made myself inside sometimes dying. I noticed how less i cried in public and then I knew something was wrong with me cause every day felt fuxking sadder and sadder and not good enough. So i thought i will use Wattpad as a diary and a space where ppl who maybe feel same can tell about them and how they feel inside. Ofc I will also look why do I have this feelings and try to feel outside and inside happy again.