When I'm alone, doing nothing, only me and my consciousness, I tend to remember all that I have gone through, memories start flooding in my mind, recapping all the scenes and making me remember all that I so hard try to forget everyday.
To be honest, that is worse than sleeping having a nightmare and then waking up panting, cause here you are up and not sleeping, so noway to stop the nightmares by pitching yourself, you need to stop it yourself but..yeah, easier said than done.
In those moment, I find peace by sitting under trees, looking at the sky, or crossing that lonely big green forest on the other side of the city, it is far but.. worth the ride.
I'll never get used to this forest, it's so mesmerizing. As hard as I tried to keep all it's features in my head, to keep some of its calmness in me to bring it where ever I go, when I come back.. I just realize that I really didn't take anything.
As much as I know, I am the only lurking person in this deep forest, all the other people are scared to get lost inside, or say it is haunted, or got spiritual powers.. well, for that last part, it does have spiritual powers and her effects are falling on me very clearly every time I come here. Plus, I'm not scared to get lost in a forest, but mostly lost in my mind.
Peaceful, loneliness, silence, these are the things that I seek and the only place where I found those is right here in this---..
Her thoughts were interrupted by some step sounds on the grass and the snaps of branches.
She turns her head to look behind, her brows knitting slightly in confusion, seeing what she didn't expect to nor awaited.
"Hey." said a voice in a tone that sounded like 'I didn't expect anyone here'
She paused, thinking 'Wasn't I supposed to be the only one lurking around here?', but all she could let out, which seem the logical thing to say; as her gaze was locked with the person's eyes and vise versa, was...
"Hey"
Blaze White is the New Girl at the Prep school in her mothers old home town. But her only goal for senior year is to keep a low profile, no friends, no parties and NO boys.
Axel may be adored and worshipped by his peer-but he hates people, except 5. So when a beautiful but closed off girl suddenly enters his group. He is not welcoming of the mysterious beauty despite the pull they both feel.
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WARNING:
This was written many moons ago. I have decided to put it back up because of a large request from readers. However, I was a kid when I wrote this so take it with a grain of salt.
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Like a deer in head lights, I freeze and watch as the car comes towards me expecting to get hit.
But to my surprise, the car swerves to the side slightly next to me and comes to a stop.
I take a deep breath I didn't know I was holding at the driver's side door swings open and a very pissed off Axel steps out.
"Thank god," I mumble and place my hands on my knees to catch my breath.
"Blaze?" He says and I hate it. I hate how he says my name as if it's his. Like he knows it's the only thing I want to hear, him calling out to me, looking at me, focused to me. It's the first time in my life I wanted someone's attention so badly I didn't care how I got it.
And that was too dangerous for me to hold onto.
"Are you insane or some shit? I could have killed you!" He says and starts to walk towards me.
I take a big breath and step back away from him, "s-stop! Axel," I stutter still panting.
It's then he notices the blood on my hands and shirt.
"Is that blood?" He asks staring at my shirt and I take another step back.
"Stop, stay b-back," I try to say confidently but I can't even breath right.
Realizing he won't listen I start to turn around planning to make a break for it.
"Don't run from me Blaze it won't go well," he growls reading my thoughts causing me to freeze in my spot.
"Do not ever think you can get away from me."